I thought if choose Tarc, it only at Penang, I won't lost easily, I meant road. Besides, I can easily back home. After that, I got to know many of my friends study Tarc also, they will live there. Hence, I thought it is great I can live with my friends and needn't with other who I don't know, at least I won't scare about my new life there. It's okay if we are just different course, different school there.
Especially I got know my best friend study Tarc also, I'd feel great, everything will fine if got those friends and her.
But.... When I got know that course only at KL! Oh my god, I never think it'd! It's seem near, but it's strange and far for me. If you know me well, oh, needn't to know me well can also know I'm that which kind of person! I'm a weak person in whatever, including my health and mentally also! Last few days my stomach pain until I almost faint, couldn't even see things! I couldn't imagine, if I live at KL without friends help when I sick again. Besides, I scare no friends, I'm not that kind of active and I'm not so nice in communication with new friends. I'd fall apart if those problems happen+ new surrounding+ stress+ miss everyone... when my bad feelings all come, I'd cry like that day I worked!
If want me study at other place, at least let me learn how to communicate with new friends and others and let me become active. Um... I guess it's hard to change my personality.
***Stress? study Form 6 is stress... My STPM result should be good enough then just can go university. Its save money than college, no matter how.
Study Tarc is also stress as impossible lend too much money from loan until I got degree and I've to use dad's money, lots, maybe. You won't know my background, it look rich, but it's not really true, I hope to save my dad's money.
To prevent I fall apart at KL alone, I choose Form 6. Well, sighs... I think study Form 6 maybe after that I'd become mature to think and change a lot, so I'd more confirm isn't engineering.
##You're not selfish.. that greedy, I have also, I hope too. But, I'm really interesting Physic now. Nobody can accompany another one forever, even couples. I guess I'll jealous again if someday you're more close with new friends, LOL. Yet, it's not point one, I should accept it as you're not my friend only. Well, don't worry, when we free at the coming day, we can have gathering or whatever. Bless we good luck! Jia You... jia you, lol.
No friend forever, then we believe in each other's heart is still treat each other is friend also after many 10 years! Trust me, my best friends, friends also, if I consider as friends, then I'll try to remember you until the end of my life. Well, best friends are greater, I sure can remember you just in case your look change a lot.
Give you good example, Lim Hui Ling, hehe, you may don't know her. She is my extreme great friend, knowing my background, family, friends and everything (Last time, of course). However, we're not always contract now, but we'd joke when we meet, at least we have talk when we meet. For her and me, we're best friend, we always say until today also. No, we won't admit to each other, but in our heart, we are best friends. I feel great & touch when my mum told me that she said she's my very very very very... good friend (don't know she said how many "very", lol, but my mum said she said a lot "very".) (she told me last few months ago) =.="
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