I cried

I cried these few days and I was just ate 3 pieces of breads and 1/3 bowl of rice for the whole day.

I locked my blog is depends on I'm not gonna bother anyone, bringing troubles for them or let anyone know I feel unhappy and need comforts. I found that the friends who surrounding me are sad as their results or futures. Hence, I'm not gonna disturb.

Alright, the reality is forcing me to have a choice right now, but what should I do?? I don't wish to study Form 6, especially Sebrang Jaya. Hey, I heard seniors said there are hell!!!

My 2nd sister wants me to study there, what a stupid choice? Well, if you don't want let me study college, it's okay, I can accept Form 6. But, see, the Form 6 here... which school is nice?? Sebrang Jaya? Chung Ling? I don't think it can accept me. Dato' Onn?? I don't know it well.

2nd sister, "Everyone study Form 6 is studied by themselves. They only hope of their tuitions, but not school teachers."

[You said it easy since you didn't study Form 6!]

my mum, "Study Form 6 is better. Between, you can ask your friends to fetch you go to school. Who want study at Sebrang Jaya? You just need to ask them for help. What course you want to study?"

[Have you ever think about my feelings? Every time you only want me to follow what you guys say!!!! Don't throw the questions to me. I knew you'd help me to think about it.]

I, "You can needn't to ask me what course I want to study, you just need to ask your another daughter, what course I should take, it's enough. I'll just follow it, satisfy? "

mum, "You pick it yourself, I'm not forcing you to study Form 6 or whatever course. Anyway, study Form 6 is better.... You needn't live at Penang, I can't take care of you."

[You don't alway say that you don't want to force me, but you try to brainwash me!! Yup, you just pretend to ask where and what I want study, but finally you'd say don't study there or what. Keep away your fake!!!!!

Whatever... place.. school.. driver... course... You guys pick it enough, needn't to ask for my opinions!!!!!!!!

Ask for my opinions, but finally want me to follow yours. Then, it's better if you don't ask!!!!! Whatever I choose, you all don't support me at all, never, ever!! You'd only listen to 2nd sister and want me to follow what she says, always!!!!!

It's enough... you choose, now, I don't want to choose!]