心寒

I’m not the first days know you all, what you all in thinking in fact I knew just I don’t want mention it! Some time you hurt me without you known!

I admit I easily get jealous, I want enter on all of you and I easily harbor suspicious. No matter how you all mention me, I’m like that! I some time I jealous to Mei, but I didn’t hate her, she is my friend since form 1 and I never become her friend due to want her teach me home works or whatever. I just want to be her friend, I can say it louder I didn’t as other treat her just due to she is good in study, want her teach some things!!
Every time, want go to shopping watching movie and playing, some of the people will see whet ever Mei got go or not, if no they don’t want go and one by one don’t want go! If Mei want to go most of the people will want to go! And some of them will use one reason “less people go, so I don’t want go already!”, why you don’t say because she didn’t go so you don’t want go? If Mei got go, just three person including Mei just three people you all also can go, why some time left three people but no Mei inside one of you will don’t want go?

Some one used one reason “Let me see tomorrow newspaper see whet ever got the movie that I want to watch or not”, hmm, don’t be pretence, I knew you don’t want go because she don’t want go. Why when Mei confirm she can go you never say that you want see newspapers?

I’m not a thick face person, my face very thin only. So, some time you asked me at the last minutes to go shopping as last time asked me and later you all want go already, I will avoid, because inform me at the last minutes can let me feel you don’t want me go, or you forgot me! 我是个有个性的人，不是你们要我怎样我就要怎样的！

As just now I heard you all mention about tomorrow go to shopping, I asked one of you, and your eyes looked at another person who organize this and say yup. Then, I will keep my mouth shut, I will not say that I want to go, because you all never ask me, I’m not thick face too. At the moment I can know may be the one who she looking for doesn’t want me go. Even you asked me at that time I also will avoid you, because seem like depends on I knew it, hence you ask me!

After I back home, just ask other sms to me and inform me go? What’s your meaning? You will afraid I angry too? If depends on afraid I get hot with it and just inform me, and then I can say needn’t, “thanks”! Hmm, girls, now I know your real! 朋友少你不少，多你不多啦，谁稀罕？更何况，我跟你不是很熟而已，我也不是很喜欢而已，下次有话才讲，没话就安静，过客。。you are the one of them…

坏人(song)

坏人 - 方炯镔
作词：马嵩惟 作曲：方炯镔 编曲：杨阳

那 一扇车门关出 我们的裂痕一声就震断了回头的路程
爱 无法均分以後 就留给你们也许用伤害结束 爱才更动人
容忍的人其实并不笨只是宁可对自己残忍 既然爱不能恒温祝福就给你下一个人
你是好人 也是个坏人对我坦承 只为了朝他狂奔不能放任 所以放了这点痛我还能忍
我是好人 也是个坏人分得够狠 你才有藉口转身宁愿爱 一点不剩也不忍 看恋人爱成路人

容忍的人其实并不笨只是宁可对自己残忍既然爱不能恒温祝福就给你下一个人
你是好人 也是个坏人对我坦承 只为了朝他狂奔不能放任 所以放了这点痛我还能忍
我是好人 也是个坏人分得够狠 你才有藉口转身宁愿爱 一点不剩也不忍 看恋人爱成路人
三个人从不对等总有个人必须牺牲那永恒 就等他带你完成
你是好人 也是个坏人对我坦承 只为了朝他狂奔不能放任 所以放了这点痛我还能忍
我是好人 也是个坏人分得够狠 你才有藉口转身宁愿爱 一点不剩也不忍 看恋人爱成路人
宁愿爱 一点不剩也不忍 看恋人爱成路人

*END*

I put this at here is not only the song hear nice and meaningful!
Because I like a sentence -容忍的人其实并不笨只是宁可对自己残忍
I think I'm the one who always patient something and somebody, and I less to get furious to other, try to control myself always..
why I want do it? Because, I don't like quarrel!! Beside this, I feel I hurt myself is better to hurt other!
And I know the feel been hurtted