Slept with opened my eyes.
When I was awaken by the grisly dream, I couldn't organise what is the reality and what is dream.
But, what I did know was my heart feeling pain.
Why?
erm... don't know.
I wish I could know what made me feel heart ache.
I knew I should face the real life now, I gotta face it.
What thing that I can sure is I will stop it as fast as posible.
No, no, no, it shouldn't have any change!
No, no, no, either progress or setback, it shouldn't happen.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Said Happy Birthday to Jeanny and Lai Jie
Last night, when I was sms to cw, receiving a message at the same time. Oh, there was Huey, she remind me that yesterday is Jeanny's birthday! Gosh, I forgot yesterday was 21st already! I knew her birthday, just I forgot yesterday is 21st. Zzz.. Luckily, Huey sent me her handphone number, I sms blessing to her. Hehehe... She called me, chatting with me. She seem like very happy to receive my blessing. ^^ Remember the last day we seperated? I had promise that I won't forget you, right? and.... you hug me.
She is my primary school friend, my 6B classmates. Hehehe... If I didn't mistake my nick name.... erm... I couldn't say at here, I could only say my nick name was given by her. LOL. Last time, we were playing and chatting together. Yup, I was very quiet and our form teacher asked them try to chat with me much. Hehehe... At the begining, I wasn't common to be with them since there is my first year to join in their class, I didn't know how to be friends with them too. But, they were kind to treat me. ^^
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The second person is Lai Jie... LOL. This one yar, I really forgot his birthday. LOL. Whist....
Huey sms to me and informed me that there was Lai Jie's birthday too. I was thinking whatever I want to send blessing to him or not? He might forgot me already since we have five years never contact. Finally, I sent to him. He went to check record book, and he told me that he knew already. =.=" Still need check the book?! Well, I got nothing to chat with him, quickly said good night to him. LOL. I didn't want to sleep yet.
This guy was the person who sat beside me last time. Both of us were seldom to talk, I think almost can say no chatting! Erm... I really didn't like to talk and I didn't know what should I talk with him. LOL. If you want to know who is him? Easy, tonight, Mr.Chan's class, you might always hear Mr.Chan call "Lai Jie" or "Lai Ji"/" gen gen". The person... he is 6B student before too.
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Could you believe? I was sms to about 4 to 5 people in the same time! I couldn't study anymore, my hand just keep typed. Zzz... Why so busy to do that? Hahaha... I want to apologize to the person who late to receive my reply.
She is my primary school friend, my 6B classmates. Hehehe... If I didn't mistake my nick name.... erm... I couldn't say at here, I could only say my nick name was given by her. LOL. Last time, we were playing and chatting together. Yup, I was very quiet and our form teacher asked them try to chat with me much. Hehehe... At the begining, I wasn't common to be with them since there is my first year to join in their class, I didn't know how to be friends with them too. But, they were kind to treat me. ^^
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The second person is Lai Jie... LOL. This one yar, I really forgot his birthday. LOL. Whist....
Huey sms to me and informed me that there was Lai Jie's birthday too. I was thinking whatever I want to send blessing to him or not? He might forgot me already since we have five years never contact. Finally, I sent to him. He went to check record book, and he told me that he knew already. =.=" Still need check the book?! Well, I got nothing to chat with him, quickly said good night to him. LOL. I didn't want to sleep yet.
This guy was the person who sat beside me last time. Both of us were seldom to talk, I think almost can say no chatting! Erm... I really didn't like to talk and I didn't know what should I talk with him. LOL. If you want to know who is him? Easy, tonight, Mr.Chan's class, you might always hear Mr.Chan call "Lai Jie" or "Lai Ji"/" gen gen". The person... he is 6B student before too.
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Could you believe? I was sms to about 4 to 5 people in the same time! I couldn't study anymore, my hand just keep typed. Zzz... Why so busy to do that? Hahaha... I want to apologize to the person who late to receive my reply.
Days
Yesterday, my 2nd sister receive her graduate photos. Cool, very pretty and... my parents and younger sister look nice too. ^^ Unfortunately, there hadn't me inside, lol, I didn't go that day, I'd went to school.
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I forced my sister bring me to take my album and name cards. Finally, mum said she wanted to follow us too. LOL. On the way back home from the shop, mum asked me Thusday night who brought me back home from tuition. I told her that was dad. Mum said that night she was too tired so she slept at 8.30pm already, and she asked why dad would fetch me. LOL. I waited until 10.15pm, I called back home to ask dad came one, my tuition class over at 10.00pm since the time is too late, so I feel no security to stay alone at there.
"Mummy, that night daddy helped you to collect all the dirty plates and cups, he washed it! The table clothes too, he washed it and arranged it nicely!", I told her what I saw on Thusday night. Well, my dad seldom to do household chorus one, there is almost one year, you can see once only, there is before CNY. Yet, that day he did!
My sister said to mum:" You see, dad so love you, you still always want find quarreling to him... a kinda things only, you already angry! There is hard to find a man who can help you to do household chorus after he back from his working!....."
LOL. My sister is right, I think dad is too gentle! ^^ You won't know that everytime they quarrel, my dad will be the first one who say "sorry", no matter the case is mum's false. Alright, usually is my mum's false, but my dad would want to be the loser too.
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Friday morning, when on the way to go to school. Oh my goodness, where is the recycling factory? Erm... Yesterday I just noticed that it had move!! Gosh, I pass through there everyday and it is quite near my house, why I never notice it. @_@
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I forced my sister bring me to take my album and name cards. Finally, mum said she wanted to follow us too. LOL. On the way back home from the shop, mum asked me Thusday night who brought me back home from tuition. I told her that was dad. Mum said that night she was too tired so she slept at 8.30pm already, and she asked why dad would fetch me. LOL. I waited until 10.15pm, I called back home to ask dad came one, my tuition class over at 10.00pm since the time is too late, so I feel no security to stay alone at there.
"Mummy, that night daddy helped you to collect all the dirty plates and cups, he washed it! The table clothes too, he washed it and arranged it nicely!", I told her what I saw on Thusday night. Well, my dad seldom to do household chorus one, there is almost one year, you can see once only, there is before CNY. Yet, that day he did!
My sister said to mum:" You see, dad so love you, you still always want find quarreling to him... a kinda things only, you already angry! There is hard to find a man who can help you to do household chorus after he back from his working!....."
LOL. My sister is right, I think dad is too gentle! ^^ You won't know that everytime they quarrel, my dad will be the first one who say "sorry", no matter the case is mum's false. Alright, usually is my mum's false, but my dad would want to be the loser too.
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Friday morning, when on the way to go to school. Oh my goodness, where is the recycling factory? Erm... Yesterday I just noticed that it had move!! Gosh, I pass through there everyday and it is quite near my house, why I never notice it. @_@
Whist
Whist... I'm hearing songs. [Don't noise me]
I only want a pacific surrounding...
No more souffle and cacophony...
There isn't only has songs...
My brain is ache now.
I need a rest.
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Forgot the things that made me angry just now.
I only want a peaceful life.
Forgot whatever grief now, I wanna fall to sleep and have a nice dream, but not a worst dream.
I only want sleep well.
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To my friends,
LOL. Girls and boys, you should be patience, okay? LOL... ahhahaa...
Don't always ask me where is my photos card and album.
Hehehehe... You all sure will have the chance to see it. I didn't go to take it yet. Hehehe...
sorry about that. ^^
I only want a pacific surrounding...
No more souffle and cacophony...
There isn't only has songs...
My brain is ache now.
I need a rest.
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Forgot the things that made me angry just now.
I only want a peaceful life.
Forgot whatever grief now, I wanna fall to sleep and have a nice dream, but not a worst dream.
I only want sleep well.
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To my friends,
LOL. Girls and boys, you should be patience, okay? LOL... ahhahaa...
Don't always ask me where is my photos card and album.
Hehehehe... You all sure will have the chance to see it. I didn't go to take it yet. Hehehe...
sorry about that. ^^
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I feel touched by you
Yesterday, when we chatted, you asked me whatever I got join the trip with your class. I'd really felt touch when you said I'm your friend too, so I should join in. I didn't lie you, I really touched when I saw the words shown on the conversation. Furthermore, that's what I bless to go the trip with all of you since I knew I couldn't lost you all. I'd thank to you.
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In the morning, You asked me want ..... or not. Yup, I wanted, I hope I can be perfectly justifiable to do it! Yet, who called me so useless?! Finally, you said:" Don't worry, you are always is 5B one!" LOL, yup, I laughed since you're too innocent. But, I'd touched by your words. I'm not 5B student, so sorry about that, there is only you will think I'm. Anyway, thanks to you since you're the person who more understand what I want and what I'm thinking about.
Well, just sometime you don't want mention it, so I won't too.
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Last night, you told me that it is what friends should be. Zzz... I wanna know why lately you always use the word friend to tell me that what you're doing is for friends. That's what I never knew it from you before, I never feel touched from your words before you become like this.LOL Perhaps, last time you just will keep all this in your heart, but right now you want to show it to all of your friends?! Hmm... Thank again to you since you did many for me, I knew. Despite, something it is kinda small case.
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I don't know what will happen on me if the day we seperate, we no longer can study together, we couldn't buy sweets, junk foods, foods and medicines or books together. I wanna know how my life will go if someday I couldn't see you again, we couldn't have tuition again and..... a lot of things that we use to do together. I think I will miss you all, but I won't say it out easily. I really no wish that day we seperate, it will coming soon. After this, you will have your new life, a new start, new friends and new challengings is waiting for you and I.
Will we still remember that day we had? Will we still love each other like now? Will we still can close each other? Will we want to come out to gather again and again? Will we busy until we forgot we had this friendship? I wanna know the answer, but I'd hope it will be what I want. I don't wish the day come so fast, seperating with you.
[Hmm... my playerlist were playing the song "Peng You" and Shinning Friend before I wrote this last sentences. Well, it isn't I set it, but I let it run randomly, how would I knew it is so cooperate with me? LOL]
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In the morning, You asked me want ..... or not. Yup, I wanted, I hope I can be perfectly justifiable to do it! Yet, who called me so useless?! Finally, you said:" Don't worry, you are always is 5B one!" LOL, yup, I laughed since you're too innocent. But, I'd touched by your words. I'm not 5B student, so sorry about that, there is only you will think I'm. Anyway, thanks to you since you're the person who more understand what I want and what I'm thinking about.
Well, just sometime you don't want mention it, so I won't too.
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Last night, you told me that it is what friends should be. Zzz... I wanna know why lately you always use the word friend to tell me that what you're doing is for friends. That's what I never knew it from you before, I never feel touched from your words before you become like this.LOL Perhaps, last time you just will keep all this in your heart, but right now you want to show it to all of your friends?! Hmm... Thank again to you since you did many for me, I knew. Despite, something it is kinda small case.
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I don't know what will happen on me if the day we seperate, we no longer can study together, we couldn't buy sweets, junk foods, foods and medicines or books together. I wanna know how my life will go if someday I couldn't see you again, we couldn't have tuition again and..... a lot of things that we use to do together. I think I will miss you all, but I won't say it out easily. I really no wish that day we seperate, it will coming soon. After this, you will have your new life, a new start, new friends and new challengings is waiting for you and I.
Will we still remember that day we had? Will we still love each other like now? Will we still can close each other? Will we want to come out to gather again and again? Will we busy until we forgot we had this friendship? I wanna know the answer, but I'd hope it will be what I want. I don't wish the day come so fast, seperating with you.
[Hmm... my playerlist were playing the song "Peng You" and Shinning Friend before I wrote this last sentences. Well, it isn't I set it, but I let it run randomly, how would I knew it is so cooperate with me? LOL]
Grief
sigh.. my space couldn't work recently, I did write here.
well, I feel like want to vomit now.
I feel want to cry.
No, you're pretending, I hate you now!
you pretend to treat me nice...
and you want my things?
everythings from me?
You want take my times, friends, heart, mind, happiness....
If you want it, tell me, I give you all!
I can don't want all of them...
I can lost all of that!
But, can you don't use this way to hurt me?
It isn't the way to make me become mature!
It won't! This challenging is useless...
I might give up everything now!
I let you be the winner, okay?
You feel happy to steal of that from me, right?
I give you, just need you say you want that!
Needn't use the hell ways to kill me.
One thing that you couldn't steal is my family.
Yeah, come to steal my sisters, brothers, dad and mum la!
If you really got this kind of ability, come to steal them!
Take my things, it couldn't replace your happy.
YOU'RE DEMON! HATE YOU VERY MUCH!
YOU'RE NOT THE GOD, BUT DEMON!
YOU SHOULD BE THE DEMON!
well, I feel like want to vomit now.
I feel want to cry.
No, you're pretending, I hate you now!
you pretend to treat me nice...
and you want my things?
everythings from me?
You want take my times, friends, heart, mind, happiness....
If you want it, tell me, I give you all!
I can don't want all of them...
I can lost all of that!
But, can you don't use this way to hurt me?
It isn't the way to make me become mature!
It won't! This challenging is useless...
I might give up everything now!
I let you be the winner, okay?
You feel happy to steal of that from me, right?
I give you, just need you say you want that!
Needn't use the hell ways to kill me.
One thing that you couldn't steal is my family.
Yeah, come to steal my sisters, brothers, dad and mum la!
If you really got this kind of ability, come to steal them!
Take my things, it couldn't replace your happy.
YOU'RE DEMON! HATE YOU VERY MUCH!
YOU'RE NOT THE GOD, BUT DEMON!
YOU SHOULD BE THE DEMON!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
如果我变成回忆
This song's lyric is about the guy may die, and he scare to left the girl. By the way, he bless the girl will find another after he had die. Feeling touch to the song, I imagine if I'm tha guy, I will be like that too.
Anyway, turn back to myself. You all may won't believe that I always think if tomorrow I die, what will happen since my grandma passed away. I guess, I will just like song sang, what I'm different is just...I had no love yet, but I will have the same feeling like the lyrics when I face to my friends and family. I didn't want to do something that I will regret now. I would think if someday I'm not in this world, what is the feeling for.. ?? Don't know. Hmm...
Anyway, turn back to myself. You all may won't believe that I always think if tomorrow I die, what will happen since my grandma passed away. I guess, I will just like song sang, what I'm different is just...I had no love yet, but I will have the same feeling like the lyrics when I face to my friends and family. I didn't want to do something that I will regret now. I would think if someday I'm not in this world, what is the feeling for.. ?? Don't know. Hmm...
Saturday, August 1, 2009
my add math tuition teacher
My add math. tuition teacher, he is a damn funny guy. His jokes always make me laugh like a mad person.
LOL. He will use his jokes and fun ways to teach us how to remember somethings. Sometime, he would make fun with us. All of his jokes are quite fun indeed!!
My classmates had capture him while he was teaching us with his stupid and funny act.
I could still remember when I was form 2, he tought us remember somethings with ultraman act and play "tai zhi"!
you might can see how fun he is from this...
I could still remember last thusday.
Teacher:" Next time Lim Guan Yin's son want to come for my seminar too, he asked me to book three place for him. But, I don't want let him sit in front, I will let him sit behind! Can't let him "Wu sei"! "
My classmates:" If you don't want let Lim Guan Yin's son sit in front, later his dad (Lim Guan Yin) come in front of you, and then you will..... "
Teacher:" I don't whatever I dare to do it or not, I think I can try it! But, don't know I dare or not..."
My classmates:" You sure no dare d la...... "
Teacher:" Hahhaha... Ya lo, ask his dad(lim Guan Yin) give me one pangkat, maybe I can think let his son to sit in front..... Don't want la, PJM mean Pengawai Jaga Motor, haha, PJK is high class, it mean Pengawai Jaga Kereta, jaga kereta is better than jaga motor! JP mean.. [sorry, I forgot already] PMPMP is most high one, is meant "Ping Ming Pai Ma Pi (apple-polish)"
LOL. hahhaha.. fun guy!
LOL. He will use his jokes and fun ways to teach us how to remember somethings. Sometime, he would make fun with us. All of his jokes are quite fun indeed!!
My classmates had capture him while he was teaching us with his stupid and funny act.
I could still remember when I was form 2, he tought us remember somethings with ultraman act and play "tai zhi"!
you might can see how fun he is from this...
I could still remember last thusday.
Teacher:" Next time Lim Guan Yin's son want to come for my seminar too, he asked me to book three place for him. But, I don't want let him sit in front, I will let him sit behind! Can't let him "Wu sei"! "
My classmates:" If you don't want let Lim Guan Yin's son sit in front, later his dad (Lim Guan Yin) come in front of you, and then you will..... "
Teacher:" I don't whatever I dare to do it or not, I think I can try it! But, don't know I dare or not..."
My classmates:" You sure no dare d la...... "
Teacher:" Hahhaha... Ya lo, ask his dad(lim Guan Yin) give me one pangkat, maybe I can think let his son to sit in front..... Don't want la, PJM mean Pengawai Jaga Motor, haha, PJK is high class, it mean Pengawai Jaga Kereta, jaga kereta is better than jaga motor! JP mean.. [sorry, I forgot already] PMPMP is most high one, is meant "Ping Ming Pai Ma Pi (apple-polish)"
LOL. hahhaha.. fun guy!
暗恋 (lyric + MV)
四目交界的时候，不要停留太久
适可而止的时候，关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索，嫉妒只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞，也不能对你说
啊 好朋友 啊 我的好朋友
不小心的沉默 不想让你太难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果过越过彼此的那到边界
是靠近好事更遥远
相信我们坐到另一个境界
搭肩高唱友谊万万岁
要是我爱你变成了语言
什么会多一些 什么少一些
就让别人去猜测，我们清白的很
就让自己去承受，那种清白的闷
就算我只是朋友，能不能有要求
如果会发生什么，也是我想太多
啊 好朋友 就只是好朋友
不小心说出口 微笑中藏着难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此的那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
你会不会也曾闪过这感觉
一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你变成了利剑
什么会被消灭 什么才会复原
那时我的底线，继续将你暗恋
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Everytime I hear this song, I will think about it MV. Do you know what is the MV shown?
Sigh. There got three main character, two boys and one girl.
Well, in the mV, the singer love another boy, but the boy love the girl. Unfortunatelly, the girl love the singer!
Confuse? nevermind, you can watch this from here...
适可而止的时候，关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索，嫉妒只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞，也不能对你说
啊 好朋友 啊 我的好朋友
不小心的沉默 不想让你太难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果过越过彼此的那到边界
是靠近好事更遥远
相信我们坐到另一个境界
搭肩高唱友谊万万岁
要是我爱你变成了语言
什么会多一些 什么少一些
就让别人去猜测，我们清白的很
就让自己去承受，那种清白的闷
就算我只是朋友，能不能有要求
如果会发生什么，也是我想太多
啊 好朋友 就只是好朋友
不小心说出口 微笑中藏着难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此的那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
你会不会也曾闪过这感觉
一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你变成了利剑
什么会被消灭 什么才会复原
那时我的底线，继续将你暗恋
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Everytime I hear this song, I will think about it MV. Do you know what is the MV shown?
Sigh. There got three main character, two boys and one girl.
Well, in the mV, the singer love another boy, but the boy love the girl. Unfortunatelly, the girl love the singer!
Confuse? nevermind, you can watch this from here...
I might think why should they should gay? huh? why can't got a normal relation? Boy and girl can match his lyric too...
anything wrong with his lyric? should them make it as gay love? sigh
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