Sept

Don't you feel that I become seldom to write a new blog? hahaha...

I'm lazy to write it. Sighs...

Alright, I think this Sept is the most busy month for me.

5th, the farewell party.

8th, my eldest sister will move to her new house.

9th, if success, we will have 6B gathering.

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so far I only remember until here, ahhahaa...

23th really want to have party at my house?
Erm... you all discuss first, these few days, I have no time to discuss.. hahahhaa..

Dying sick

I knew I'd sick since few days ago, but I would never know it's so serious this time.

I've been such a long time have not as sick as today, it is totally killing me.

Waiting for my mum came back to see doctor, I was dying! The pain is from my head till my feet, headache, sore throat, cough, fever and my bone pains.

I couldn't sleep, eat and drink, feeling extremely dying.

Finally... finally... the doctor came on 3pm, checking these and that... zzz.. I guess he thought I got A H1N1, LOL, hhahahaha...

Honestly, every time I fever, I would feel headache and bone pains.

Now, I feel better and thanks to my friends, hehe... but still have a little headache and bone aches.

I would try to attend all my tuition class, yet today, I missed it.

I never know it would be.. xD

I never know that it would be.

I talked about my friends to my sister just now, asking her about herself. Hmm...

Nonetheless, my mum who listened only half of my talks, saying, " Isn't she (my sister) asking you (me) about yours?"

At the beginning, I knew what my mum was trying to ask me, but I just pretended didn't hear it before she asked that sentence! =.-"

Anyway, my mum seem like would accept it IF the thing happen. Yet I guess it won't, maybe, and it is still long way to go for me.

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I don't know how to say also.. sighs..

Alright, I feel myself is quite hard to believe in guys' word, especially lately. But sometime I'd believe also, haha... xD

I only don't want people lie me and play me like a fool.

Hmm.. Especially after watch the movie "nv ren zui tong", her husband is totally suck, sighs... he got different faces to treat his wife, sighs. He could act like very love his wife, but on the other side, he betray his wife. It is totally out of my mind since he act and pretend well,so good in lie! I feel like want to slap him, am I too irritate because of a movie? hahaha.. LOL.. I can barely say, I seldom love a movie like this and even will feel hot.

My days

Hungry caused I felt nausea this morning during the maths period. Luckily, the maths sir is not that strict, so I got the opportunity to "sleep".

"Wan Theng~", suddenly heard the sir called me, I had no energy to answer him anymore. "Are you headache?" Yea, but not exactly, I was giving him a fake smile, "sleeping" again. "Wan Theng, why you look so sad? Are you sad? You quarrel with your boy friend?" Zzz... I shake my head, how wish I could talk, yet I couldn't, I had no that energy to answer him.

I stood up and prepared to go U7 for having my 2nd breakfast, looking at him, I felt like he was thinking of I was sad. Nevertheless, it was because of I was too hungry! Perhaps, low blood glucose level.

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She asked one by one, "What you mean for your success life?"

"Happy and healthy" [this is what I'd wish people when his/her birthday, sometime] Healthy, maybe... yet the happy since like depends on ourselves thoughts.
"Get a good job"
"Get a lot of money"
"Get more friends." KC answered, it is quite fun and special since .. um.. I'm not mean that friends are not importance, but just as teachers said.
"Be richest" too greedy, right? It is not my answer.

From the beginning, I only have one idea and it is what I expect the most for my life.
"A happy family" it looks simple, right? nonetheless, it is not easy to have a happy family.
I'm not mean that I should marry and even have children, then it is count as happy family, I only want everyone of my family is loving each other forever, living in happiness.

Well, while my words came out from my lip, Wooi Ling was kinda shocked and asked me something. The teacher was shocked also, but I didn't pay attention what she said as I only listened to Wooi Ling. xD

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The tearS

I don't know whatever I'm too weak or too funny, yet I could tell you frankly I don't want to be a weak person.

I had my thoughts, imagines and ... to them while doing some work this morning at school. I was upset for everything, nothing serious matters happened on me today. I feel fake. Well, sometime I'd feel like this since Form 6 and I don't want to let myself cry because of this again, thinking of I'll get use to it.

She told me something just now, feeling bad. I've a look for its details, so the worst feeling is getting stronger inside my heart as I understand her feelings. As a outsider who don't involve them, somehow, I understand her feelings since I was almost like her before, but I wasn't as serious as her. Honestly, as a friend what I should say, I've told.

Then, I try to stand on her conditions to think because she is my best friend, I feel.. I think.. Honestly, I'm sorry since I couldn't help you all any thing and I don't know what should I say to you also and comfort you.

I'm tearing..

LOL.. It seem like is not a big problem [the feel which I've today at school]
It is totally non of my business...

But... I'm crying... *I know I'm silly, I dislike this kind of me also, too weak...*

miXtuRe .. xD

It's like an emergency break, I become cold down since I'm a selfish.

I'm tire and I don't want to get hurt anymore.

Am I right to do so?

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If you say, "I don't understand you, so I hope you tell me more about yourself."

Why should you understand me?

I always believe that time would help you.

Moreover, I'm the person who you share, I share.

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Yea, my voice can be louder than that, but just when I shout, it is impossible to ask me shout to you all the time.

I'm not pretend to use a small voice, hope you know.

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Sometime something won't be happened if you know how to control it.

I rather loss a chance, no matter it is good or bad, I also won't rather to let myself cry someday.

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Since the day you keep laughing when mention that matter, I know, as a outsider, I see it clearly, but just yourself didn't.

Now, maybe you're regret.

Bless you good luck

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She is a pretty girl who is naive.

Nonetheless, the god played a joke to her, sighs.

Wish she will be fine, however, I'm not close with her.

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Somehow, I miss them and feel sad to know their situations now.

Honestly, we didn't even talk one word before that, we were totally like strangers.

Now, I rather be with them, at least it is not that worst.

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Irritated

Sighs.. I don't know what's wrong with me today, something wrong, I guess.

I feel...

Ahh~

After that, I really angry and hate myself so much and WANT becoming a crazy to shout! Why should I? It's none of my business and actually, I can needn't to care about it what. Seeing from the surface of the problem, I guess you only would get half marks for it since it's not exactly because of that.

This is the second time which could consider as serious, for me only. Honestly, I feel I'm hard to control it, trying hard to minima and don't talk, so that nobody knows, but I failure.

OS "How would you know?" Uh...

Perhaps, it was too obvious just now.

I feel bad, angry, hate and disappointed to myself, feeling I was over, no, I'm over! Ahh~ I hope that I won't repeat next time.