Loneliness

Sighs.. I'm lazy to go to school today and tomorrow also...

As I know Cheng, Chai Theng, CK, TH, the sauce and ... will change school soon, they will leave SJ, leave our class-U6.

Loneliness and friendless...

Perhaps, Looi can changes too. Then, it really leave me... Ahh~

Hence, maybe including me the class has totally 3 chinese girls and one Malay girls! Gosh!

U7 students are getting lesser and lesser...

U6 too... almost the same...

However, we got some friends are still at NS, they can't fill back those who are going to other school.

Sighs...

I don't know how could I alive at the coming days...

Rules and craps

My rules...

If you want to SMS with me, you should reply me in case those needn't to reply anymore.

Although, you late to reply, it's okay, as long as you reply.

Don't talk until a half way and disappear.

If can don't talk with me in facebook, it would cause my line becomes unstable.

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我真的很想说：“别看了，也不要叫我。。。” 你不知道的事情还很多！我在想些事情，真的是。。。我先在发觉你不只不了解他，也不了解我。我不会妒忌更不会羡慕任何人。。。

对他无言。。

至于你那个是什么表情啊，真的想丢你！

它永远都会是三个人的“秘密”。

王八蛋，为了回他的讯息才那么慢回我，我都没找你算帐呢，你还敢说我是stupidiana, 现在又讲我是变态？因为我聪明，所以才知道的那么多，不可以啊！ 哈哈~你诺要人不知除非己莫为啦！才被我讲几句就心虚了！

谁要你那样讲我。。呵呵～

To know

I can tell you, honestly, I didn't touch my homework these two days.

What I did were calling my friends via internet, either MSN or Skype to get know their problems and new lives.

[I did a test; somehow I feel it's accurate at the first time I did it and yesterday one too. It was talking about I'd worry to my friends' thing and leave my own work beside.]

Sighs... While receiving a message at Math T tuition yesterday, I was totally shocked, feeling like fall to a hill. I never know it would become serious and earnest! I was quite worry and I hoped I could tell somebody else about it. Looking around to search who I close the most, don't doubt, just Mei. Sighs...

Alright, there was lucky that I could still pay fully attention to white board.

On the way to back home, Chean called me and had a short conversation till I reached home. The first thing I did when I reached home was ONLINE. Sighs...

Suddenly I thought about Huey would get hp on Friday, so I told her too. She thought the matter won't be reached at the earnest level, yet I told she was wrong.

Sighs... Friends, it is your matter, I can't help and I won't gain so many words. I only hope that you all will be fine.

If I help or gain words maybe would cause our relationship become worst. All of you are my friends; I really don't hope to see it happened!

Once again be rational and don't be emotional.

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I chatted with Elaine via Skype last night. I miss her so much!!!

She caused me laughed many times... LOL... hahaha...

I got know many stories there and showed me something like a cookie (Korea's food).

Well, should let me taste some more what, LOL.

Hope that I could have time to chat her like that again when we are free.

Sister, hope you good luck there... haha.. xD

Hope to be fine

I don't know what happened between you all. I'd really hope I can know what happened between you all as soon as possible, wishing you all will be alright, no matter how you're friends. I'm sorry that I can't help.

My dear friend, Totally Spies member-Clover (Mei). Happy Birthday!!! ^.- Bless you healthy and well-being. (26 May) I give you present now, those blessing at the front. Hahaha... xD

*Something I should apologize at first*

Sighs... Feel we're separated to go difference places facing different challenging of life!! Gosh... To be mature? To learn how to solve problems ourselves? To don't depends on others? Yeah, about that, it's fate.

Well, perhaps, I'll drive to school at the coming days, but the condition is my mum would with me. She wants to follow me, hehe.

I thought I'm in a big trouble again... the tuitions time causes I headache... But, luckily, got a chemist at home.

(As you know, if you ask your family member to give you tuition, what will happen? The fact won't be as good as you go tuition. x.X That's why I tuition outside, but this time no choice. )

Owing to I know this fact, my eldest sister asked me to teach her daughter, I asked her better go tuition herself, especially kids. =.-"

Anyway, hope everything will be alright.

All my fault

All I see are just no light and darkness roads, its alike I'm in a dead street.

No matter where I go, I'll die too.

Continue stay at SJ?

First, I don't like the teachers there (most of them).

(It's okay, I can patience this.)

Second, so far Chem, Phy and MT teachers... I don't know what they're teaching about.

(It's okay, I can have my tuition and study my own.)

Third, it's too far from my house, I can't walk home or back home immediately.

Fourth, I really have a serious transport problem!

(If really nobody can fetch me to school, my sister can fetch me. But, who fetch me home? Mum? Please, this isn't BJ! She always late and forget to bring me home. If at BJ, I could walk back myself, 35min was taken. By the way, my tuitions time are rush, near after the school, I can't wait, okay?)

I got half reasons are depends on my family, I just study form 6.

If now I say go college.

My sister said it need a lots money. That's why she forced me to study form 6.

My mum said I can't take of myself and because of she only listen to my sister, she forced me too.

Now, if I really want to go. What will happen? She would say my fault, I chose one.

Anyway, no one of them would stand on my situation!

I chose one? if I chose college, you all would give me see "color" too.

Good.

All hell! You all only stand on your side to see my things!

Okay, study SJ!!! The transport problem, you settle, okay? I don't want wait or see got people forget to fetch and cause me late to tuition!!! You win. Everything you're right, all are my fault.

none-lifeless

有些事情久了你就习惯了。

刚开始你会一直挣扎，没办法接受它的改变。

那么。。你就慢慢的让它从你生命中消失？

你舍得吗？

改变，

强迫性的会让你发狂，因它是一瞬间的变化。

选择性的会让你痛苦，因你必须坚持那立场。

我不知道是不是做错了，我会否后悔？

我只是自私的在保护我自己，你不懂。

人与人之间的沟通不该出现问题，一旦它出现问题，那么你们的关系也一样会有问题。

当你觉得跟别人沟通是一个问题，是辛苦的，

该放弃吗？

还是努力的挽回呢？

你有权力不告诉别人你的事情，但你没有权利去伤害尝试关心你的人，懂吗？

问题实在是太多了。。。

就因为我们都是固执的。。。

对任何事都太认真。。。

都是多疑的，那多余的猜测，那不信任。。。

Friends in reality are difference with friends in virtual world.

Friends in reality can know your situation and condition, in case you hide it.

A friend in virtual world only can give you advice, they can't guard and help you in the reality.

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不会做啦！

翻来翻去都不知道我要写什么好，做来做去答案都是错的！

做到我想睡了！！

Sighs.. go jump Penang Ferry better. x.X

18

Honestly, I love this pair of number-18.

When you was kid, you hoped to grow up as fast as possible. Nevertheless, when you grow up now at this age, you'd hope back to be kid.

I only have 365 days on 18 year old, its limited age. LOL.

For me.. I rather still at BJ with all my dears there.

I miss them so much... those at colleges and PLKN...

(Sometime SMS with them till tearing)

The friends who we know so many years.. at least 5 years.. there aren't easy.

When you was kid, you listen to your parents. After that, you'll only listen to your teachers. Then, till teenager age, we're more close with friends than others (mostly).

I lost many when grow up, so I rather I never grow up!!

What I earn is just be brave to face everything.

(Candidly, I don't think I'm brave and strong enough.)

How long I need to walk through? I feel the challenges of life are getting hardest and hardest... can I still alive after that? Sighss..

Sighs.. Well, bless all my friends good luck in everything and love you all.

I'm lazy to blog lately indeed.

Beside, if I haven't time to reply your messages or SMS to concern you. Please forgive me because I'm busy lately. Many things are new, I need to take time to understand them.

B'day

Time pass so fast... I never know I could alive till 18 year old...

Well, today school day, I've very normal feeling at school just now. I wasn't special happy or sad, perhaps, these two feelings were mixed together.

My mind only have, "I want to go home..."

By the way, I received many blessings and presents today too.

The presents are alike last year, album and bear. LOL.. Anyway, thank you my friends who gave me that...

*Thank to... Mei, Jocelyn, Ching, Chin, Shin, Looi, Ley, Alex and Phei.

** my boss.. zzz... she caused me cried, her message was so touching. She sent the blessing on

Sunday. Well, thank for my her, my old friend, ahhahahahaa....

My sister bought me a necklace, it very pretty!!!

My younger brother and sister bought me cake last night, I teased they were rich. As you all know cake is very expensive, even through, they shared.

I got my small b'day party with my family. Well, my dad was on the way from KL backed to home, so he didn't join us. My nephew was so cute and excited to feed me cake and said "happy birthday" to me. By the way, I don't know he was eating or playing the foods... =.-" He is just 1 year old, near two year old..

By the way, thank to mum... hehehee.. she born me on this day.

I found that my class got another three chinese girls, one is alike Mei, her looks.. Well, I feel... not only me.. most of girls feel they're hiao... Hmm...

Actually, I always thinking of there would one of them will fall into his trap someday! hhahaaa...

Alright, we know our school guys...

They're so shiok have new girl-friends there... =.-"

While us.. we needn't special or purposely to talk with those guys anymore..

How many years we know them? At least 5-6 years!!

We're common for them, they're common for us...

Perhaps, they want fresh.. hahaha... hahahhahahaha

suck TEACHERS, hell SCHOOL

I tell myself to accept the school every morning before reaching there, thinking positive way for it. Yet, it disappointed me everyday!!!

Alright, my fault to talk too much at the assemble.

But, there weren't my faults at the following cases...

First, the suck teachers recorded those who don't have black shoes, tie and "lencana".

Then, he scolded us.

Well, do everyone remember what he, Mrs. Saxxra and my form teacher said last week? They said who want to change school can needn't have those conditions yet!!!!!!!!

Second, the sucker asked us who want change school line up one line today, right?

As his wish, we did.

Awhile, he scolded us, "Again.. why only one line? Should be two lines!!!!"

What the hell!!

Obviously, they're be directed against us! 出尔反尔.. even a small thing like line up too!!

I don't know how to alive there if I cannot success to change school. Could I alive at there for one and half year?

Should I go to school to cause my mood down tomorrow?

Sat & Sun

Having gathering at Perfect Ice last night with friends-Sushi, Looi, Chin, Mei, Ley, Chewing, Chean, Wee, WC, KJ & KH (just few minutes he went), we were sharing a lots of stories...

We played something like True or Dare, alright, we only played True. It was fun! I wonder why Chewing didn't lose one? Chin was the one who lose the most, about three turns she lose.

I went to visit Huey today again. =.-" No point, I wanted to tell her about stories.

She seem like got lots of friends there already. Do you know why?

We went anywhere, the girls there would say they're Huey's friends.

Another girl who look alike KJ's sister came with Huey, hehehe.. seem like want to hear my stories? xD

This Sat and Sun are great.. I could rest.. Mon is coming soon, I'm gonna die.

alike a hell!!

I don't know how to explain, irritate today totally! SMK SEBERANG JAYA is a shit school!!!!

Mei and Looi got scolded by teachers front of all of us! Phei was pity today too, the teacher was be directed against her today.

Perhaps, I should have to say there weren't only her, but about we all BJ. The teacher was purposely asked us to give her respond as support, but we didn't want to do so. Hence, she said we were all sleeping, no ever listen to her! Cheh, why should we support her?

WC went out to talk just now, we clapped for him. hahaha,.. we were very agree and felt great to hear it. Well, he wasn't telling the most bad word yet. By the way, the teacher said he's still young, don't know everything and he said wrong only! Nah... you just say wrong!

Beside, the teacher only allow us to say the positive word for SMK Seberang Jaya. =.-"

Talk about the game today. We won the first game again, well, zzz... Honestly, we hadn't do well, we were just simply played the LAME and CHILDISH game. Second game was like usual camp's game, we only won 2/4 station.

Um, the school is totally brainless, giving us to rest on 11am today! I was hungry till I couldn't see well, I was almost to faint to sit at there!

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What One Malaysia?

Obviously an unfair country!

Please, Bagan Jaya students are more than Seberang Jaya students at form 6. But, why the JPN still don't want permit to have form 6 at BJ?

It's trouble our seniors, us and.. maybe our juniors too!!!

Anyway, SMK Bagan Jaya is the best! SMK Seberang Jaya is a shit!!!!

yesterday + today = lame day

I took a nap yesterday, I dreamt about many family members and friends. Well, the dreamt was just nothing special. Beside, I found myself had 10% awake, the dreamt was controlled myself. Chin, Theng, Cheng and Huey and I sat together and four of us keep talking non-stop, it caused I got nothing to say. But, it was fun to hear their talks, kept laughing I did in the dreamt. I forgot what they said. I dreamt Jocelyn was reading a book at beside.

Sighs, I almost cried when awaken.

Half minutes later, I SMS to Jocelyn, chatting lots... but, many details we hadn't touch since it's hard to explain via SMS.

About 9p.m, I received a message from Huey. She could have handphone last night. I was just giving her some opinions about study. By the way, she said I caused her wanna to cry due to I said something. xD I seldom see her will want to cry indeed!

I wanna why the time pass slowly these days?

Now, is just Wednesday!

Hell school!!

Actually, I feel the teachers there couldn't been believed!

It's so hard to do the change school matter! I hate our JPN, government and country!

Bother indeed! We're headache to it everyday, every second!!!

Well, we got a day like yesterday... bore.. blah blah blah..

Except seminar, we got game.. like usual we went to camp play, nothing special, but lame!

Having a group, we designed logo, slogon, name, visi, misi, moto and song.

Honestly, I did nothing.

Should I say I lucky to with all BJ students group? Hehe..

Two seniors are BJ too, one isn't.. other members are S.Ching, Looi, Mei, WC, CW, Yang and KC. plus one more Tun Hussien Onn student, a malay who name Sabirah.

We were wasting a lot of time to thinking about our change school matter, LOL. WC kept saying SJ is hell at there and gave idea which like anti-SJ, hahaha~

Many things were thought by Sabirah.

Others like songs, slogan, visi and misi was our school students.

Name-Wiwawang.. given by Looi, it's bee sound.

moto, visi, misi are lame.. just wrote for those people see. =.-"

Sang rasa sayang, hahahaa.. and slogan was from PLKN camp.

I found that our slogan and song is the most special, different with other groups there at least.

Last minutes, just done to think the song and slogan.. sighs..

Luckily, we were last group!! xD

Introduce ourselves.. OMG.. what a funny names all!!

They heard Jowy Anderson as Sony Ericson, so the rest all change funny nick name... gong kia, china girl, motorola, samsung, panasonic while me become Honda! (I've forgot the rest.) Gosh!! We last minutes just gave our nickname.. I was laughing non-stop! =.-"

I felt many group were good, I thought BP's group would be win. But, do you know who's the winner?

Wiwawang!

Hard to believe indeed!!!! I only feel happy to that as it was really surprise me..

well, the teachers.. headmasters.. all suck!

no idea to the new school

I'm tire... don't want to blog...

First day to register.. bore, sleepy, tire, hungry, frighten (fear of something)...

Honestly, I hope to runaway from the room, out of the school!

I can't stand, I don't even know how to face!!!

Teach me how to.... be nature...

I couldn't imagine the coming day, we're going to at the same school or ever same class!

We've been long time don't see US wear uniform already, hehehe..

well, honestly, guys wear like that is nice.

Girls, at least it's better than we wore "apron", right? xD

Mei is pretty today! hahahahah~

I saw some other guys from other school is look nice, while girls.. I feel our school girls nicer, lol.. xD

I'm not talking myself, because I'm ugly.

Alright, don't be lame.. seriously, I don't understand why our school doesn't want to open form 6? because of the number of students? because of want to let us independence?

Because of those reasons want trouble us? It's hard to go SJ, so far, dangerous...

Who rather to fetch? sighs..

The teachers there aren't teaching..

Well, need trouble most of us need to change school again...

It's not fun to make all of it... I don't want there... love BJ, sighsss...

one and half year to be there, luckily, it's not too many years there...

她

有时候还蛮佩服她可以从早忙到晚，都只是在做家务。

应该很累吧！

记得小时候，每当我生病，她都会半夜起床来喂还在半梦半的我吃药。（在家）

每次我生病她肯定都会摇头的！呵呵~

也只有在她面前能显示出我有多不舒服。

可是，以前我就是不听话，还很厉害顶嘴，让她哭了！

现在，我不喜欢回答她对我学业的疑问，因为。。

会觉得压力，很烦！

她总是很喜欢对她不懂的问到底，需要解释了一题又一题。

反正你解释了她都不懂。

比如跟她说Biology,她连发音都不准，你要教她，然后又要解释那是什么来的，读了以后可以做什么的。

明天，她又会问你同样的问题，好像昨天你回答得很白费！

所以，就很烦咯！

总之，她问什么我都还能接受回答，但学业的，只有“烦”！

十问九不答！

我怕她打我，更怕她发神经！

我也最怕她留我一人在病房，说穿了就是害怕她不要我！

如果，她可以少写一点magnum就好了。呵呵~省多！

如果，她可以不要凡事都嘴阳，弄得关系变不好，那该多好，清静多！

想跟她说对不起，我的。。

任性

叛逆

不回答

生气

甚至骂她

不懂事

总让她操心

等

不管怎样，她都依然疼爱着我，从不放弃过我。

谢谢你，妈咪，我爱你！

《母情节特辑》

Don't mention "this"

Hate to be apart!

Hate...

I couldn't sleep at night... I feel my mind is lacked these days, couldn't think well and decide well.

The honest...

I never directly write about it at here before. Now, I gonna tell something real. I don't know what's wrong with me these days, so I might to tell.

Candidly, I don't know how to answer you if you ask do I have any math solution which doesn't solved?

I don't know indeed. I try not to think.

I've almost forget there is a hard solution for me to solve and I only know to escape and forget...

the hardest...

would disappear from Pat's life.

I'm busy and feel... anyway, complicated feelings to my study matters.. So, please, don't mention this to me again.

Study matters are enough to let myself crazy, so don't add this. By the way, if anyone bother me because of it, I won't mind to kill you. I'm cruel, sorry! Don't force me to do so.

He said, "As someone thought you're clever to solve math solution, so he threw to you. But, you said he's something wrong and even crazy!"

Have you ever see a funny person who doesn't want to get any math question and cried because of it? That's ME!! Gosh!!

I'm "clever", but not clever!

Gather before apart

A small gathering before we're apart.

Friends-Huey, Mei, Chin, Looi, Jocelyn, Chewing and Sushi.

We met Ai Wei at the Perfect Ice.. She rejected to come out, but she was with her mum there.

Tireless, moodiness, sleepy, bother and sadness...

Therefore, I was quiet... speechless...

We were chatting about study matters, sighs...

"Why you're so quiet today?", Jocelyn asked.

Sighs.. I got nothing to say. I'm grief.

Bye my dear friends, wish you good luck! ^.- Hope to see you again.

God, can you let me feel better?

First, I miss dad so much!! However, he just goes on yesterday, as he always goes to other state to work lately. I knew he try to at home too. Sighs... I wonder this time when does he back? I want to have a dinner with whole family.

Mum always goes out with friends lately since he's not home. I'm bore! I hope I could talk and watch movie with her every evening, yet she goes out!

Even dad back, my parents would go out together, only two of them....

Second, I'm gonna to step on a strange and new school life! A strange new school, friends, teachers... How much I hope I could with those friends!

Elaine's gone.. Jocelyn's gone.. now, Huey too! Ahh~ Somehow, she couldn't get form 6, so she should go college. Those who understand me wouldn't at beside me! I'm not fear couldn't independent without them, I only hope those who understand me well with me!

Feeling fear, nervous, strange and stress, I hope they're here with me!

Most of friends would apply CL... sighs.. Their results so good, if they all go in CL, left me alone again.

One ... thing.. I'm not expect happened..

I'm sorry.. if I hurt you.

I want to go out... to breathe.. I really tearing right now...

Best Friends

1.好朋友就是经常叫你去死的那些人……

2.好朋友就是老是说你有病叫你看医生的那些人……

3.好朋友就是抓住你的一个缺点说上半天的那些人……

4.好朋友就是知道你要去看医生还笑嘻嘻问你死得没的那些人……

5.好朋友就是在你面前肆无忌惮地说很难听的话的那些人……

7.好朋友就是说要拉大队去你学校把你吃穷的那些人……

8.好朋友就是看着自己玩的很开心在旁边不参与也会觉得很开心的那些人……

9.好朋友就是会教你怎么走路小心，过马路看车的那些人……

10.好朋友就是你考完试还晕乎乎的时候在你出现在你面前嘻嘻哈哈，
还说你不要怕，吸取经验，明年再考过的那些人……

11.好朋友就是跟你一起不分轻重可是对你父母毕恭毕敬的那些人……

12.好朋友是平时恶型恶相，却在你遇到难事时语重心长地开导你的那些人……

13.好朋友就是那些无论原本是忧郁，沉默或是乐观向上，
在一起总是嬉闹声一片的那群人……

14.好朋友是你想起嘴角上扬的那些人……

15.好朋友是时间和距离都无法从你脑海，心中带走的人……

16.好朋友就是听到你说了一句错话笑闹半天还要罗嗦上一段时间的那些人……

17。好朋友就是岁不经常联系，但你还忘不掉的那个人！

18。好朋友就是俩个人在一起，你不用担心会说什么错话。做错什么事的那个人！

19.好朋友是你会突然想念的那个人！

20.好朋友是无论谁占谁一点便宜都不会计较的那个人！

21.好朋友就是和你同甘共苦。不会出卖你的那个人！

22.好朋友就是什么事都会和你分享的那个人。

23.好朋友就是好久没见，在一起时还会和你套心窝子说话，
就像昨天刚在一起吃过饭的那个人！

24.好朋友就是和他在一起时你是最真实的你的那个人。

25.好朋友就是很久没联系，见面也不会尴尬的那个人。

26.好朋友就是无论你做了什么傻事。都会给你支持和信任的那个人。

27.好朋友就是……无论他做了什么，你也觉得他是你好朋友的人！

其实你觉得好朋友是什么，他就是什么。。。。。

Copy right from June Ang.

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In fact, everyone's attitude is difference and so some of its not true, sometime we only will act over to best friends like we treat our family.

I feel some of those conditions are alike Huey, zzz... when I cry, she'd laugh first. =.-"

I think Miss Jocelyn and Miss Elaine are busy on their stuffs lately.. x.x

Ya, forgot to thanks my driver-Mei, hahaha.. bother she comes my house to fetch me go here and there these few days.

Busy...busy.. busy...

I hope to shout now indeed!!!!!! Ahh~ *weep*

Gosh, when does it would finish?

I mean those stuffs for Form 6!!!!!!!!!

It's killing me!!

We need to settle everything this week. It's rush, right???

One week-7 days for you to prepare those documents, photocopy it and give teacher sign it.

Buy uniform, register tuitions and so on...

It seem like nothing to prepare, just about that. But, the problem is how many places we should go??? How many time we should have to run here and there??? Preparation for our mental...

I rested yesterday. Well, last two day, we went to schoolS and tuition centre. Today, backed to school again just now, I'll go to register tuition later with Looi. By the way, I've still few subjects haven't register yet and buy things, example uniform and pens....

I'm sorry that I couldn't drive to SJ next time since I got no car. If my brother doesn't ride to school, maybe I can ask mum uses motor and the car let me to drive, but the problem is brother rides. So, mum just left car as her transport to fetch sister to school. I really hope to drive too, sighs.

Somehow, Huey doesn't get Form 6, her result is almost like me what. My result is balance than her only. Her mum went to school to look for Pn.Lim today and we met her. Sighs, hope it'd solve.

In fact, I don't want to blog about this, I'm about to dying now before its solves.

A girl's ending

Sometime I'd think about what a girl's life to be in future?

I guess there will be only three type of endings..

First-You graduate, working and marry with the one who you love. Then, you have your children and say goodbye to your job.

Second-Same as first, but after have children still continue to work.

Third-No marriage.

Anyhow, I guess it'd be a tire job to take care of children than work. If you only work half day, then it's nothing to say, it's the best way. Yet, if you work day and night, what you'll gain? Just MONEY. If just take care kids at home, no money to earn, only FAMILY LOVE.

It's just my opinion.

If I'm not mistaken, I'll celebrate Mother's Day on that Sunday. Well, no matter how there will be no chance.

真实

习惯了在些人面前当坏人，就一直那样当下去，反正都没差不是吗？

我不喜欢拐弯抹角的找借口的拒绝，我也知道那些借口烂透了！

反正就是不会当双面人，不会讨人喜欢。（所以，人缘不好。）

难听的话总会从我这里传出。。

我没办法像别人一样伪装得很好，即使讨厌也能说很多好听的话，以至于不得罪对方。

抱歉，我做不到。

我就只会做回我自己。

说实在的，并不讨厌，只是交情不深，会闷。。

最重要的是不想看到那种写着“讨厌你”（我）的眼神。。

一个人在想什么，很容易被自己的眼神给出卖。

我不爱说太多话，除非真的想到要说些什么的。

了解的人会懂。。

不了解的会觉得我骄傲或讨厌跟他们说太多。。

像我表弟说的：“有些人因为某些东西不好而不喜欢, 有些人因为不喜欢才说某些东西不好."

不管对东西还是对人也罢，这就是偏见。

而有些人往往对他自己不喜欢的人，无法接纳。。

很偏激！

他们的我只是个讨厌的人，我一直都知道，所以才一直“婉拒”。

我不想参与任何说人家坏话的“组织”，更不想互相猜疑，也不想看到那种眼神！

那种“生活”不适合我！

这次真的不是想太多，或是生气什么的，我很想写很久了，只是有所顾虑。。

A day with family and friends

1 May 2010

We needed to meet on 8.30a.m at Chao Quan. I woke up on 6a.m this morning since I was too cold, getting kinda illness, I felt like want to reject to go actually.

Foo drove CK and I to there, well, we lated. Those guys were eating already, hehe. Mei and Huey were busy to take foods for us while Foo was like camera man there, kept taking photos. As Wee came late, so the situation was seem like he kept eating non-stop, hahaha.

Today list- Mei, Huey, Jocelyn, Chewing, Sushi, Shi Lin, Looi, Ley, CK, Wee, Huat, BH, WC and Foo. (Sorry, if I miss your name.)

Some of them backed home. Huey, Looi, Lin, Mei and I went to Bagan together, Lin bought one Sari. Then，we went to Carefour, buying a lots of rubbish foods!!!!!!! Those guys-BH, Wee, CK and Foo who said wanted to find us at Carefour after went to school, but they didn't as BH scolded KP for about 2 hours there. =.-"

Lin drove us home about 12p.m.

Taking a bath, I slept the whole evening because I sick. Beside, younger sister and my parents went to Penang.

I went to eldest sister's house about 11p.m, I took care her kids and slept with them.

The "great" b'day presents for Foo.

30 April 2010

I was dying to settle my personal matters this morning and I met someone accidentally who I didn't expect to see in a shop. Taking bath quickly, I went to Huey's house, and then Phei's house.

Phei and Alex were starting to cook early before we arrived, Alex kept capturing photos. After that, Huey and I went to buy somethings else, hot day ever! Carry on to cook...

Foods- Cake, spaghetti, pudding, eggs, mushroom soups and oranges.

Waiting for Foo came, sighs.. we were totally hungry, about 3.00p.m. Having our LUNCH together, we cheated hadn't cake and some of us went to living room with him and talked with him while some stayed at kitchen prepared the cake.

Sang birthday's songs, made a wish.. took some photos.. We had our cake, zzz.. Four of them started their cake's fought! While I was innocent to get it from Foo when I was looking at cars outside. x.x

Huey took one egg to knock his head, "phaik", Oh My God, it was like bird's shit!!!! Hence, his whole body from head to leg, all very dirty and smelly! Well, we weren't purposely to do so, we didn't know that the egg hasn't boiled. Alex, Phei and I to knock.. hehehe.. Alright, these time was intentionally. Eggs' fought. We were like crazy high in her house.

Last minutes, they said wanted to watch "Ye Wen 2", it's nice movie indeed! Therefore, we cleaned the house, washing plates and taking bath. We went to fetch Looi to go together.

After the movie, Wee said he wanted coming Sunway with CK to treat us Sushi King. In fact, he wanted to treat Foo, he drove Phei and Alex backed, so just left Looi, Huey and I. Um, shopping while waiting them came, we had our conversations in Sushi King and dinner too.

He drove us home.