1 dec 2014

I’m just bored, but I don’t know why I could have time to feeling bored actually. Issh~ Perhaps, it supposed to be say as moodiness. From the half sem till now, every week has a test and mountains of projects, reports and assignments. I wish to have few more days rest, yet there is no. Whatever. After this the final will be coming soon, and then this sem end, my 3^rd year 1^st sem will be ended so.

These days, I just miss my home deeply. About a month I haven’t been home. Well, people will never understand the feelings that you are not stepping into own house when you are passing by it. Perhaps, nobody ever care for it, or they think that I can accept this feeling.

I just don’t like people ignore me seriously. However, I have tried to join in. Perhaps, people still think that I’m not. But, I found out that maybe sometime is really due to the “face problem”. Yea, I’m not cute, and I’ll never be cute also. That’s not me. Yea, I’m not attractive… No matter how hard I tried.

You will never understand that the feeling when you're standing in front of them who you consider as close friends, but they ignore you. They chat their topics with small voice just enough for hear with very close. They said let's take picture without calling your name, or just say that please help both of us to take picture, and ignore you.
Well, I want to say that, what you guys treat me? as friend? as mirror? or nothing? or just good enough for helping you all to reducing costs?

Not to help? it's alright. I'll never force a person who will not willing to help me. Reject my request? it's fine, I'll never force you to accept too. I'll never force anyone to do what they don't like to do for me. 

Sighs… just ignore as you all like and as usual. Whatever. I’m not belonging to here. I’ll back to my hometown and live at thereafter graduate. There have the friends who will listen to me, care for me, care about my feelings. A truth one.  

Love unilife

I feel very thankful that I got them in my uni life, however, at the beginning, I was always emo due to "unfair" friendship. But, I found out that they are just loving difference people with the difference ways. No matter how, I should satisfy of that.

Sometimes, it's good that keep it like this, or else I don't know how much and how long I'll emo after another two years. Well, I guess I'll cry if we are going to separate at this stage, yet sometimes I don't hope I will cry "die".

I never regret to choose Unimap and to meet all of them, no matter good or bad. I feel appreciate and loves. Here, it let me know more friends from every states, allowing me to get know how's other states. It let me grow stronger and stronger. I'll change definitely after these 4 years being here, just a different me, the person who can try to survive and going to face the society. However, I don't like and afraid of that. Anyway, the afraid is getting lesser and lesser maybe, I feel expect how is my future.

I feel great to have all of them in my uni, they make my uni life colorful and great. I guess I'd miss the moment when we travel around, goes to class and exam together, having meals together, playing around, doing some stupids.....

This sem end, we haven't have a chance to travel again, I miss it so much, want it so much. As we went to travel every sem end, now I feel little disappointed that it gonna end without travelling.

I guess I'll never can return back to this time after it has passed, so I have to treasure it, right? :p
Well, I'm the person who is not good in giving other concern, and hide myself much, hope that you all can tolerance me anyway.

Thank to be a part of my uni life, and everything you all do to me. <3 nbsp="" p="">

Love the one, you love.

love the one, you love.
care the one, you care.

I faced an incidence today, it was shocked & scary for me.
Alright, it is my first time to see it, facing this situation with panic & don't know what to do.

I saw a friend "fa yang dian" today. It's seriously terrible for me as a first time saw this kind of situation.
Luckily, there were two friends who know how to help at there. I was afraid to lost this friend at that movement, although, they say it's harm.

I felt to cry after he was calm down. But, I continue act as normal even in front of him.

Sighs.. Although, this friend have some bad attitude to us when we are cooperate to do tasks, but he is a good person & good guy.
He is our buddy, although lately we are busy so we are less to join each other.

Anyway, this case let me know that I should forget the bad from a person & treat the good one well.
& appreciate the friends, family & lover well, life time is short.

The first post for 2014

After enter Uni, I'm getting lesser and lesser to be here. Erm.. I think it's since form 6. xD

At here, I use laptop to type those reports rather than this. Haha..Using the time to type reports, to complete it is better than I type a blog.

It has been so many years, & even right now I'm still trying to learn how to don't too care about something, I means like a friendship thing.
But, why I still will cry right now or when people ignore me?

I appreciate that friends from secondary school seriously, our relations are never including enemies, we are simply love each other so well with our simple heart.

But, at here, it lets me feel that it's about social. Of course, there are still some simple ones. Anyway, I hope that I won't change my simple heart to anyone also.

I don't like complicated.
I don't like enemies.
I don't like fake.
I don't like depends on benefits.

I just want to be myself.

Sometime, something ... I don't understand, I don't know the answer, I will not go find the answer by myself too. Perhaps, it's what my learning attitude too. :p
Anyway, I guess I will never ever get the answer.

However, the result is not what I want, it was failure since a very long time ago, I guess.

By the way, I watch a movie lately, the guy says, "The world is simple, but the human's heart is complicated."
I guess it is true. & I like sentence.

Bye.
ps: continue to stay for few more days to the next paper.