My desire & lately

I guess maybe I'm the person lack of a sense of security, since sometimes I'll lose the direction even just for a small and stupid matter. I really desire to have a good sense of security.

Perhaps, you'd think why I'd like to think so much, considering the nonsense until fall into a cave. Well, I somehow I'd easily feel anxiously.

I've tried to don't think nonsense, yet sometimes it would fail, especially during the exams while facing the stress.

This is the main thing I desire and also the main reason why you don't know what I'm thinking about sometimes.

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Seriously, I won't really dislike him last time and now too, however, U7 friends quite hate him.
Nonetheless, he said something to destroy my sense of self-esteem, maybe that's good since he stimulated me. He'll regret what he had said.

Alright, as I only want to live in peace, I hide and keep my desire, just try to don't stimulate and burn me.

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I don't know why Looi is kinda bad lately, she is even worst than Shin now. =.-"

Keeping on bullying me since yesterday, but somehow her bullies are alike the jokes for me, hahaa~ When her mockery words combine with her acts, there are perfectly could make me laugh, that's fun indeed, especially when she figures out what other people's talks.

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haha.. I just read a note click here

*quiet agree with >>

金牛的伪装：忙碌

失恋的牛牛通常会把自己的日程表安排得满满的，加班、出游、回家陪父母是牛牛在失恋期最好的“伪装”。因为对于牛牛来说，忘记一个人是艰难的，还不如把思念的精力转移到工作、娱乐上来，不让自己有空余的时间去想那段感情反面更好。

【失恋後记】金牛座会抱头痛哭 << seriously, I only will do this, haha...

actually, there are still a lot accurate one, I lazy to copy & paste. hehe..

25 Oct 2010

Seriously, I didn't know how to do the maths, I guess I'll failure again!

Alright, somehow, I'm quite blur today since the morning. I had gastric during the maths paper, sweating~ It was seriously pain! Anyway, I had tried to answer the questions too, and then had my breakfast-nasi lemak. x.x I only ate a little, really couldn't stand anymore, it was getting serious. Thus, I had no choice to eat my cookies.

Without taking a nap, I went to tuition, then I didn't know what I did at the moment, blur~ I was blur was not due to I couldn't understand, but I was somehow the spirit was not there.

The irritate matter was my 2nd sister turned on her speaker louder when I was sleeping and it only passed about 20 minutes. It was fine, I hoped to continue sleeping, yet the someone called her, it made noise!!!! Ahh~ I planed to sleep one hour! x.x

The CNY has about 2-3 months, but now everyone keep talking about it. =.-" Hmm.. I seldom hear this topic during Oct.

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Luckily, she taught, counselor & told me, or else I guess I'd don't know what should I do.
Well, it is true that she becomes mature after this.

*Appreciate* ^^

24 oct 2010

终于，不能顶了，去penang什么都不用再想！

姐夫突然说要去吃laksa，二姐就说：“我和妹还有ｘｘ（我）共司就可以了。”
我：“三个人一起吃什么？”
“吃laksa啦！”
重复我的问题，结果，她们：“你是在想谁？你的boy?”
＝＝我的意思是，不够吃啦！
今天终于吃到了我想了很久的－laksa!!哈哈～

妹今天又吵着要去autocity，昨天才去而已。但是他们只去了１５分钟。
大姐女儿：“我也要去，我脚痛而已嘛没什么的啦！”
＝＝刚刚才去shopping而已，还要走。。
＊最后还是没去。

过后，去载大姐的儿子，结果他一上车就说了很经典的话：“小姨，你的头发哪里美？！你包tuala hor?”　笑到爆！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈～

《乌云密布》

一大早，hmm..还蛮迟了，我们同一时间走出房门，看他刚睡醒的样子，而且眼睛还肿肿的，想必他昨晚哭得很厉害吧！比我还糟。。

*洗完脸，各自回房去了。。突然，某人过来：“他还像哭了。。我刚才听到他哭。。” 我心里想着：“要你说啊，我早知道了！而且不会哭的人才怪！” 这句话我只在心里想着没说出口，可是用着不理不睬的表情看了说话的人一眼再继续抱着我的枕头做我东西。我自己心情也不好，我不想说话。。

他哭不就让他哭吧！你还去敲他房门干什么？他只想要一个人静静的在房间，你就不要烦他嘛，而且他最不想要让自己家人看到他的眼泪。等他心情恢复自然会对你笑。

*每次只要被姐姐或妹妹发现我在哭，就会开始问东问西的。我知道她们关心，但是我不想说她们总会问到底，就只觉得只想冷静都不行。可是弟跟我一样基本上不会问，就算问也是问一次而已，不回答也无所谓。

每个人都有自己不想说的事，每个人都有想冷静的时候。

希望他可以快快复原吧！

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speaking test

sighs.. I seriously "no eyes to see my speaking result"!! Honestly, I couldn't see it since the examiner was trying to cover it.

Sighs.. somehow, I always jam in a sudden & I seriously don't know what I was talking about, I meant my grammar mistakes. zzzz....

The nervous caused I couldn't care my points & grammars! Ahh~

Task A was really nothing to say, but I stool can stop on time, really ON TIME. zzz..

Task B I got thing to say, yet somehow my brain lacked while speaking, stupid indeed.

It's useless to talk about it now.

Anyway, thank to my friends, hehehe.. quite touch indeed since I never know that you would remember or know I need to take the test today.

The hero

Hmm...

We met our dad's best friend, I seriously don't know who he is. The "uncle" word came out from my mouth softly, it seem like only I could hear it. Hahaha.. lol.. *I went to see "you xing" with my family, but my parents were standing with their friend whereas us (with siblings) stood at opposite them since the grass is aching us.

When back home, mum said, "He is your dad's best friend & dad was saved him before. Thus, he is quite appreciate your dad." Huh? Save? How come?

The story...

When they both were young, once, uncle was chased & beaten by gangster with their long "parang". The "parang" is seriously long!! x.x Running to beach, and then into the sea, he came back from the sea again because he realised that he didn't know how to swim!! Hence, the gangster continues to chase him. Luckily, dad passed through there & held him to his motor, then ride speedy to hospital. Beside, there was lucky that dad ride faster enough, or else both of them would been killed & the "parang" was long! x.x

1 Oct 2010

I'm sorry since I couldn't help & concern. Sighs.. I got to know many friends are getting the bad results for their exams, feeling down & moodiness. Anyway, don't be too upset, I always support you. ^.-

Honestly, I'm quite afraid my coming exams too because I know I'm lazy & didn't really work hard. Everyday, the sleeping time is more than study time.

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Hmm.. Today is my mum's Chinese birthday, hehe.. Happy Birthday, mum!! & wish you be healthy... Love you ^^

Happy Birthday to Hz & Yuhao too.

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Yesterday, mum laughed while coming in my room, it caused I felt weird. She said, "One at living room hug & press her pillow, another one at bedroom to press her pillow too, I think both of you will take along your pillows to marry. You all still are kids??"

Zzz... Honestly, as I know my another three sisters are alike me, having bad habits. Yet our habits are not exactly same, except my younger sister, three of us would like to press our pillows or hug not only when we want to sleep. Hahaha... xD Alright, my younger sister was using handkerchief to "hit" herself face, but now she no more. But 2nd sister & I still do our bad habits, hahaha... We hug our pillow while playing laptops, sleeping, doing homework and watching movies also. I guess only when take bath and eat, we won't take along the pillows. Hahahhaa.. Funny, right??! xD

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I read a article while doing the reading comprehension at school just now during the MUET period. Honestly, I didn't really read it in details, yet it is writing about something which I'm thinking of.

I like this sentence- *The sensible choice would either be to break up or to wait, you cannot rush it.*

My mum... sighs.. I also don't know what I should talk to her, she asked so directly & the most terrible is how come she knows so much about people's background??

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Sighs...

I'm seriously don't hope to see his comments on my profile again!!

However, I tried ignoring that, he is getting over now.

*Luckily, I just deleted it. zzz...