Great day

I went to Old Town last night with friends.

List-Chewing, Looi, Sushi, Lin, Ai Wei, Huat, Ley, Huey, Foo, Yang, Hz, Shin and I.

Lin told us about ghost story of her camp, horrible indeed!!! I can't imagine if I was her, it was like a movie show! Huey said she hopes to meet this kind of experience, =.-" They said if Chean was at that camp, she would get mental problem come out, LOL.. While me? =.-" I won't be as serious as Chean, but I'd can't stand on these cases because I'm weak compare to Lin and Huey. It wasn't said by I, but Foo. Zzz... I got so weak? x.x One thing I could sure is I'd cry!

Those who go NS showed us their picture via Facebook too.

We were chatting about their camp have handsome guys or pretty girls or not. =.-"

Beside, how's their camp life. Honestly, Lin's ones worst indeed!!

There was got one picture which totally surprised us and out of our mind...

We met Ai Li there with her sister, she celebrated her sister's birthday there. ^.-

Miss them.. especially those go NS.. Finally, we could gather to share so much to each other..

I feel like the whole Old Town was our voice, so louder. Hehe...

(I slept on 5.30a.m last night! couldn't sleep anymore....)

Loves my gang

I hung out with my gang today. Well, there was less Elaine, sighs...

We had two cars to go Sunway. What to do AGAIN? As you know, we only would like to watch movies, sing K or eat.. hehehe.. so as usual we did.

The special was... hahahahaha... Mei drove Jocelyn and I, while Huey drove Chin and Theng. Mei fear to drive alone to go Jocelyn's house, she asked me to accompany her since she knew I'd and other won't, hehehe...

Eh, we got some bad new before the time come near, I was disappointed indeed. Yet, it was solved finally. Thanks. We thought Cheng would go, so Mei's car couldn't fetch so many people, but she didn't, sighs..

We were discussing while waiting for another three people came, suddenly, I found that I lost my handphone!!! Gosh, I thought I lost on car, but do you know where I dropped??? Beside Mei's car, on the floor, the car park!!!!!!!!!!! Ahh~ Fortunately, I found it and it wasn't taken by other!!!! Thank god!!

We sang K, um, I felt touch and appreciate that I got great friends, do you know why? Mei said, "Someone loves 林宇中's song lately." And, she chose those songs for me. Yeah, I love his songs, but it's not lately only, just I've been long time don't listen it, feeling nice again. Hehe.. I never told her, I thought nobody know. I guess she saw it from my facebook's comment, hahaha.. Anyway, thanks. She causes I feel that got friends support me at behind me.

But, due to we were rush to watch movie, so those songs were skipped. Um, we checked out before the time. Huey and Theng brought back some Malay songs, gosh!!! Only them know how to sing that, sighs... Even Theng talked Malay to us too! =.-"

We watched Being Human, I feel it's nice and funny... But, if it doesn't show that it was just an imagine, then it's better. We got our dinner, sighs, too big plates indeed!!! Almost all of us couldn't finish our food.

I drove Huey's car, fetching her and Jocelyn from Sunway to Mei's house. While Mei drove Chin and Theng backed her house too. It's my FIRST TIME to drive my friends, driving a far journey like that!! Hahaha.. excite now!

We got talks, watched movie at Mei's house, staying till about 10.15p.m, Jocelyn backed, and then we went to buy some CD. I felt paiseh since I caused Huey need to park again depends on the stupid Indian, after we wanted to buy CD. When it was near Theng's house, gosh, Huey's car collided with wall, she drove.

Finally, I had a chance to tell Huey and Jocelyn some about my matters, hehehe.. Sighs, I had not finish to complain!!!

Jocelyn told me something... We won't "kelah" to help our friends, truth friends.. hehehe~

I feel great to meet them... You would seldom to see them add comments at my blog or facebook, but actually, they got see it and keep in heart... example, I like to hear his songs lately and lots...

new drivers... drove friends... stories of NS.. Some "Oh My God" matters... funny jokes.. and lots

great journey, great day and great friends... haha.. love you!! ^.-

Loves day

I want to rip the book many times.. This time is really want to do so...

But...

Yoy, I don't know I had wrote so many pages in the book. Sighs... It recorded so many bad and nice movement, I can't rip it while thinking so.

I was simply gain over the pages, smiling and feeling lame... I'd signed on every page after done it.

This is the book look like... like it smell.

I mixed it together, my sign and date to write..

How many I wrote? hehehe..

I knew it's ugly..

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We went to hospital just now..

yoy.. feel weird!!!!!!!!!!!

Mum told nurse, the nurse looked at me... (I got nothing to say, just smiled.)

Nurse asked me went into the room to talk with doctor, =.-"

(I was speechless, and smiled again..)

Mum asked me call him uncle, hmm.................

somehow, I couldn't say out the word, really!!

how many year I never call him, well, sometime at home just say doctor chua,

now, asked me call UNCLE!! Gosh~

I was thinking, I should call doctor or uncle?

aiya, better don't call, hahahahahaa...

I always like that what... LOL

A tire Sunday

I've to wake up early to visit Huey and Theng again with Huey's parents and Ley.

Originally, Cheng couldn't go today. I forgot to tell last week, on the way to go the camp, on the hill there got many beauty and large houses! Very special designs.

We had talked just now, calling CK and KC came to find us, but they didn't want.

(Ley wanted to see them. Hahhaa..)

Suddenly, Theng saw KC, well, Ley asked him came and just talked awhile, he left.

=.-" She called him came, yet didn't talk with him, so weird, he left was very normal. Sighs..

Theng and Huey complained I didn't bring laptop to let them see videos and play. Zzz... Asking I bought cakes, still complained so much... sighs.. BF-bad friends!!!!

If I'm not knowing them so many years, I'd beat them already... (joke only.)

When backed to take car, Huey's younger sister held my hand... haha.. became my sister already, LOL...

some about love conversations with sis

I had conversation with sisters last night.

Younger sister and I found that no one of the "flies" surround 2nd sister is normal.

Including age, look... or whatever..

Both of them called her more than two times yesterday, isn't crazy?

Sighs... Sister didn't become crazy, I'll become first before her, sighs...

Our talks are about these.

Well, both of my sisters don't believe that I've not even half "fly" surround me.

Sighs....

2nd sister needn't turn on laptop, her handphone rang whole day, sighs...

Younger sister signed in her MSN, every time she just sign in, there will have many conversation appear!! (MSN sound.)

I joked, "2nd sister got two flies, younger sister has many thousand flies. Weep.. I haven't even one!!!" (Pretend to cry.)

Both of them complained their flies very noise and bother them. I said, "Luckily, I've not even half. hahaha."

Anyhow, they didn't believe in me anymore, they thought I cheated. Did I? Zzzz...

"When you heard my handphone or MSN always ring like yours?" I said.

"Got, last time..." 2nd sister said.

Alright, I explained to her many times about that and I just ONCE only!! Zzz... He was calling almost everyone of his girl-friends during that time.

I'm not lie, it's really, NO!!! (Those who I wrote before, they're not consider as fly for me, just a short period.)

"I don't believe that my sister will be so worst, no fly!! Can be my sister one sure look not bad." they said.

["Hey, you thought your sister, ME, very pretty? Okay, if you thought so, then it's okay. (I don't think so.) Well, I'm not close with anyone of guy in school, except those 1,2, 3 who are always join with girls. Second, what's my look before? I got a nature curve hair and added some straight hair, it's weird and ugly! I tied it, it's messy, didn't tie like mad girl too, I hate my hair! Third, my clothes. Do you think a girl who wore aunty t-shirt and long jean every day will loved by other? (in case he's blind!) I got a messy, ugly, extremely normal, no image... for guys! "] (I hadn't choice to be like that and for those clothes too.)

What the guy loves, except cute,weak and pretty girls? Ans: is a tidy girl!

Therefore, image is importance. (This concept can be used in boys and girls.)

Do you think I was a person who like that would have a good image for others?

So, how come guys would love me? Dreaming indeed. (I'm never expect it so far, maybe just one percent of it, hahahaha... Well, impossible.)

One more possibility, he loves me secretly, so I never know got people love me, hahaa.. =.-" (Think too much.) Well, this possibility got only two percent (Not twenty percent.) Weep..(Act only.)

They asked me need to give everyone a good image at Form 6, um.. secondary school is never mind.. (Lame.)

I hope so... I hope to give people a good image, a tidy girl. (I'm not hoping to let other love me.) But, I can't!! Wait and see after school start! I need to tied my hair again and very soon it'll back like before, UGLY!! My hair is like this, I can't change anything.. It'll only straight for few months. Let me count for you, Nov, Des, Jan and Feb, my hair is pretty. Starting from March till the end of year, my hair is like crazy girl. Um.. it's starting back to before now...

If you want to see a pretty and tidy I, you wait until I graduate STPM. Zzz...

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In fact, we talked a lots, it's just one part of it.

it's my blog and sure I wrote about myself.

2nd sister said she doesn't meet a guy who is handsome, rich, have many knowledges, nice, love me and... (so much conditions.)

I asked her going to sleep earlier, and then she could meet him in her dream. (Princes? lame.)

You thought this world has real fairy tales? Zzz..

Can meet Mr.right, it's meant you're lucky enough, still need to think about prince? Sighs...

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Younger sister helped mum doing operation, haha..

Mum was funny, she kept shouting last night, said pain.

2nd sister said mum was just acting, haha..

I asked younger sister, "Have I got too?" (She comes nearly, looking awhile.)

Pushing I away softy, "You go away. Your face no oily, how come you'll have? Mum, unfair, why you born her (me) face no oily." Younger sister complained. =.-"

Unfair? Hey, I'm the most ugly daughter among you!! =.-" Everyone of you prettier than I, sighs, just face oily only what. But, who would notice your face got dots or not? The main is you pretty.

real I

I just finished watching "老公万岁" last night. Well, it's alike reality of couples' life.

Almost all the concepts inside the movie, I'd agree.

I like the movie shown men are always protecting the lady who is weaker. Well, who they thought she's stronger, she'll needn't protect.

Actually, who doesn't hope to get protect?

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I won't say that I'm a special girl.

For me..

Everyone is special, everyone is unique.

Yet, how special or unique you're is depends on other.

Some girls would act they're scare of this and that, just pretend to do so.

Some is really scare of.

If you're asking which group I'm, I think I'm not in these groups, but another group.

I won't pretend to be fear of anything else, if I really afraid, I'll see the situation.

1st situation: if everyone is afraid, then I'll try to decrease the frightening feeling and act like doesn't afraid, even through, I same like them. (You'd seldom have the chance to see I scare at school or somewhere else.)

2nd situation: if nobody act scare, I'll show out, hehe, asking for helps. (Well, it normally would happen at home.)

Uh.. Can't deny that I fear of worms or any wriggle animals and many legs animals.

It's fun when I asked my parents or brother to help me take away spiders or whatever, haha.. Alright, brother would laughed me sometime. =.-"

The main point which I want to say is I don't like people think or consider that I'm a weak girl like other girls. But, actually, I'm, just don't show out. haha....

@zzz... bad brother, he comes to say something to me, I thought he knew something else, cheh.. originally, he meant nothing. I watched singapora "guai tan" today, no scary at all!! Please, I watched till almost sleep, it's bore. But, sister's friends said it's horrible!

Ah~

I really can't stand my sister lately!!

Keep speaking phone the whole day with two guys, it's killing me.

Sometime, woken me at midnight. Sighs.

Okay, I knew I was the first one who talked phone at midnight and woken younger sister before. But, I did it once only.. weep..

Yoy, I hope to shout.. sighs.. noise.

One complain again... weep..

I just received Theng's call!

You know what she wants me to do?

Helps her to buy cake to go tomorrow for her... sighs...

See la, friend ar.. never see she buy for me..

Surprises 意外

是不是大家呆在家里闷得发神经了？（我也是，哈哈~）

就快开学了，不久就没得闷了，没得发霉了！

很奇迹的，前几天才跟小学同学聊了一会儿。刚开始还以为他找错人聊了，可他不是嘞。很白痴的问他：“你知道我是谁吗？” （英文）

前天晚上又收到一封讯息，是前年去camp认识的朋友啦。还蛮意外的，我还以为我换过电话号码后他没录起来呢。

昨天晚上，我家跑来了只“马”，哈哈~

最白目的是我跟弟弟演戏啦，我以前都没他那么假呢！

“最近的人是怎么了，跟我不是很熟都跟我说话来了！”，我讲给我姐听的啦。OS，“反而跟我很好的都不知死到哪里去。”

你知道是谁跟我聊天吗？知道你没兴趣啦。

又一个surprise咯，Pei Keat和Hen Sheng都来跟我聊天，有点不对劲啊！我可是从来都没跟Pei Keat讲过话嘞，Hen Sheng还好咯。所以，我又很白痴的问Pei Keat:“你知道我是谁吗？” （英文）

很好笑吧？ 总是问别人知不知道我是谁？！哈哈哈~就因为真的很surprise嘛！

我发现到有样东西，只是我个人的观念啦！

每次我先跟男生说话，他们反而会很拽，慢慢地回我，很不甘愿那样！

如果是他们自己跟我说话在先，就算我的语气不好，他们都能承受哦！

所以，下次不先开口了，真的是够烂！(situation)

22 April 2010

Weep.. my friends complained I used english to write my blogs, they feel bore and don't understand what I'm writing!!! x.X

Before I wanted going to Apex, my brother asked me to act with him. He wanted to do the moral folio, washing the clean plates with him and the cooked with him. =.-" All just pretend to do, I hadn't time to make it and so I simply cooperated with him. Zzz... He'll wash plates? Dreaming!!! Beside, he took my cloth to wash!!! Then, threw at there, zzz..

Therefore, I lated. I gave them watch a video, on facebook, viewed clothes on web... We talked a lots and shared a lots, I've been long time haven't see some of them and laughed with them together. A great day. ^.-

Today list-Mei, Chewing, Sushi, Looi,Chin, S.Ching, Phei, Alexander, Ai Wei, Wee, KH, Huat and Yang. I'm sorry if I miss your name here.

Backed home, hahhaa.. I saw one strange motor. When the car drove nearly, seeing one people ("senior")!!! Oh My God, he found our house!! Surprise! He bought some chocolates came. I knew he'd come few days ago since he searched for our house for few days.

Lots of weird matters lately. Hahahaha.. Hope to hang out with friends again.

*Talk to myself*

Insomnia last night, 4a.m. just slept.

I've to thanks "senior" yar, inspired I. I'm surprised that I'll got senior, hehe...

But, my confidence is gone on everything. Walking on a bustling with noise street, I was lower one's head yield among other.

I knew I'm not ever a star, it's bright on night. Perhaps, I'm just like sand, nobody will remember me. *Hoping that there will have people remember me.*

*Hope there will be somebody else is suitable and could listen to me.*

I'm a bad girl ever. Sighs.. *Think too much*

From Jan holidays started till today, trying to find many things to let myself busy. So that, I won't think too much about sadness.

I lent novels, it's not meant that I really love to read it. I wrote novel...uh..

Doing masterpieces to spend my times, I write blogs to write out my days.

I online on MSN and facebook everyday, it's meaningless, it seem like nobody will talk to me and I'm not expecting to talk with anyone indeed. (That's why I set "away" or "appear offline".)

I did videos to waste my time for learning how to make it, nobody teach me.

(I know how to create a video by myself, it's not meant that I can smart like this on study.)

First video, it was what I wanted to do since last year, I did it. Second video, I took this job because I don't want to let myself free.

At present, I done all, everything. Therefore, I'm too free now, starting to think about lame matters and sadness. How?

*Hope to getaway from it. (On the way).*

Bye bye... I feel I'm not the one who you all know. Somehow, I feel I'm a demo while think those bad, sighs...

I want to write it out!!

I want to write it... weep!

When I close laptop, I'd think to write it.

When I open laptop, I'd don't want to write it.

Why? Since I fear and don't know how to write, and then it just will don't cause something unexpected happen!

In spite of, I thought one way to write it out here, have locked by passwords.

BUT, AH~ I couldn't find out the words from HTML at my template these time.

I've found it many times!! Failure!!!

In fact, it's not a secret, it's just about my lame thinking again.

It's hard to find a template which I like, that's why I didn't change it, however, I couldn't find out the words from HTML.

How??? Ah~

"Beh tong".... I want to write it out!!!!!! WEEP~

Label as "hate" since I couldn't write out. Sighs...

*Think*

I just read brother and Keh Shin's blogs. Actually, I'm alike my brother. Usually, we wrote is for ourselves, wrote down our irritates, sadness, happiness, moodiness, thinking... After I wrote it, I'd read again and again sometime.

I feel cool to myself, hehe... I could answer it (very calm down), hehe.. Somehow, no feeling indeed. xD

I feel something bad will be happen soon, sighss.....

I don't understand that why on this world would has person who like race to control seize other's husbands?

Are them want to prove they're much more pretty?

During working before, she told me that her friend would like to make off with her boy friend. Alright, we saw her friend before. There were what her boy friend told her, and then she told us.

Are she want to prove she's more ability?

I'm imagine about has person would like to steal other's lover?? Then, what's her purpose to be?

Three of the example is want to prove they're much more greater, smarter, prettier...???

Well, I think who involve these three examples are prove that they're abnormal on her thinking if she really isn't for love just for other purpose.

Watching movie at midnight last night, I cried, uh, it's not consider as cry, I guess. Okay, I was weeping and tearing quietly.

I'm...STUPID, SILLY & IDIOT!!!!

Why should I weeped because of that? Well, what the movie shown was alike my situation before and I feel great that she could be so great to done it. Despite, she'd be hopeless, but at least she won't regret after this. I didn't regret too, however, I never tell.

I never know I could still weeped so long time depends on it, I thought I won't.

Shouldn't sad because of the idiot! Shouldn't weep depends on the stupid! Shouldn't regret due to the silly!

After I've a sleep, I feel better now.

>.< the real I

It could only be I back when staying at home, the real Gwee.

I don’t like to answer, then I don’t answer, nobody would hate me.

I don’t like to smile, I won’t give a fake smile, and they wouldn’t think I’m arrogance.

I'm not happy; they’d still talk with me, but no answering them.

I feel sad and cry, they would ask why.

I can stay at home to be cool, cool, cool... no one of them will think I'm cool.

I only become quite.

Somehow, brother become alike me lately.

Sudddenly, talk very much to you, suddenly cool down.... to think about many.

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I was shocked.. uh..no... no shocked. Alright, my primary school friend talked with me in facebook. I change a lot, right? hehe~

The deep memory for us were we met at comp class, it's our first met. During the time we were getting comp test, but it is mix with other class. Honestly, I don't know what is the test about, but I remember both of us are same group! What should I say? Eh... I was very quiet and shy to talk to a stranger. Yet, I was going to face stranger for the coming days to done our project, it is about to design something via PC! Hey, I wasn't so know how to use PC, so many things I didn't know.

Luckily, he taught me. Or maybe I should say he bullied me to point me do this and that. Zzz... I was so silly.

Standard 6 we just same class and just know him, but we never talk in class.

I just told him, bullied me, recalling back my memory, next time meet him, I'll bully him back. (joke)

Honestly, every time see him, I'll think about in the comp class as background. It's a like a photo stop at there, no much memory for that, just a picture in mind.

Childhood

Both of that(previous post got wrote) were what I'd played before, but our ways are difference since we never know how to play "ba gu li" with a correct way. Beside, our "da jia yu" just feed for beauty, we seldom let them fought as fear of they died. I could remember grandpa would find out "ba gu li" which dad's used before and some took from beside his house (my neighbor lost it). My dad stop his study on standard 3, do you know why? Because of he wanted to play "ba gu li"!! Gosh, he told us!!

We were fun with to be with natural, threw stones on the "box" which drew on sand or floor (our special way, it could be wiped off it), jumping on the "box" across to the stones and it got levels. Otherwise, played "black man", crapping your hands to "blow" away the cards. (Lost all those cards!!!). Between, we'd ran, jumped, played, touched, hit, picked and.. lots way to treat the sand and leaves!

While I was unhappy, I'd picked the leaves from coconut tree since I wasn't enough tall, I should jumped to get it and used hard force to pick it! After that, I might feel better.I remember that Wei Bao would filched our fishes, so my parents dislike him. But, I felt pity him. Sometime, he locked by his family, so he could only stood on the chairs, talking with us via the holes of his house. I miss the time my mum and sisters chased us feeding us to eat, three of us ran here at there at the field and they at behind to ask us ate, it was fun. Usually, mum fed younger sister, eldest sister with me and 2nd sister with brother.

My cousins would come to my house or at grandma’s house for few days during school holidays. There were about 6 people slept on a bed, double bed of course. I’d going to join to make noise! They hate me, haha, since I destroy their games like “millionaire”, “black man” or whatever. Hence, sometime there would be more than 6 people on the same bed, we couldn’t even turn! Cousins taught us to play fire and cooked with sand and leaves while parents weren’t home, haha.

I love Sunday and school holiday. My paternal cousins would back and my maternal cousins would come too!!! You know there were great to see both side of cousins played together!! It’d never back, sighs. But, from kid till today, we’re closer with maternal cousins.

Well, I called younger sister as “Mei” since I didn’t like her last time. I jealous her since she was bad, but they’d still believe in her? However, she wasn’t a baby, but parents and sisters called her “B”? They always said, “she’s still small, you let her.” “Why should I? She’s not a baby again, why should I always let her? I was as her age before, they said I need to like this and that… but, why she needn’t??”, I OS. So, I wasn’t satisfied and called her as “Mei”! I was so childish!! Now, I’d love her too.

Lack of my family member would know my real name because they used to call me “Cao Cao”/”Ah Feng”/”Ah Pung”. =.-“ Some of them thought my name is “xxFeng”. Well, my cousins would know my real name since they asked. But, some adults don’t know. My younger siblings wouldn’t call me as “Si Jie” and not even respect me, but right now they’d.

Honestly, got so many siblings are a good matter or not I don’t know. I only know that we fought every day, sometime one day once, no a rest day. Commonly, both eldest sisters seldom to fight, just three of us would, two to one! Brother and I fought younger sister, we weren’t bullied her, just she bullied us at first, complicated. Now, we’re not to fight, hehe, just sometime would quarrel.

B.P to visit them

There was lucky that I could woke up today!! I arrived Huey's house on 7.55a.m! Ah~ Her younger sister let me went in to wait. Watching movie awhile, talking with her parents till Cheng came.

The way was curve, turn-turn-turn few rounds. Luckily, there aren't so much turns, or else I'd nausea. We up to a small hill, then down, passing through a "pekan", about one second reached a village!! Same road, it'd become different! Go straight would go in the village and reached camp. "pekan" all shops and Chinese, village all Malay. =.-"

It looks nicer than Chewing's camp, hehe. Cheng and I went to call Theng came out first, then Huey's parents just went to call her. Oops, there weren't us calling them, but those.. um.. don't know who, hahaha. .. Those camp people stood a two line and shouted, "Welcome...." Actually, it's too long, I wasn't to remember it. Well, I was shy and fun to see that! The Malay guy said I shy. =.-" Cheh. Went back too, I forgot what they shouted, hahaha. ..

Well, chatted, ate, walked around and took photos there. Broadcast to call us don't take photos at camp, ahaha, but we still did. Theng always asked, "Did I become fatter?", sighs... The beginning, I said YES, but finally I said NO, hahaa... She was, well, she always like that. xD

Huey asked whatever we got hang out? Um.. I answered no drivers, all are new drivers. Hehe...

There smell bad, got vomit's smell!! Yuck. I saw KC went to have water there, I guessed. No see CK. Theng said her friends there complained her walking style ugly! Haha~ She decided to change, LOL. So, she kept complaining Huey too since Huey's like that.

Theng started explaining the life there, non-stop again. (say her bad word) Well, compared to Huey, Theng got many friends there. Theng doesn't want me upload her photos to facebook, but she didn't say couldn't upload here what, hehe... well, I'll upload on facebook, but I'll choose and not so fast to done it. Originally, Huey's dad would bring her hp to her every weekend to let her online. @-@

Oh ya, there was only Huey's younger sister with us, she fought with Theng!!! =.-" haha... and me too, but at least I won't hit her back so much. I won't bully "gina" one.. xD Theng's parents bought two mee and two "dou shui". Huey's parents bought two "hokkien mee" and 4 "tong shui". =.-" They should eat two people's food!! Geng!

Next week, Theng's turn to welcome people. I counted got about 45min from my house to there, max is 1h can arrive. Huey said want come next week can also, but tire and sleepy, see first. Bye, friends, miss you. ^^ take care.

初恋红豆冰

I went to watch this movie last night till 2.00a.m with my sisters and brother in law. In fact, I don't want to go since I'd visit Theng & Huey this morning, I've to arrive Huey's house at 8a.m, younger sister wanted to watch it and nobody with her because eldest sister wanted to bought VIP seats, it's double seat.

The movie let me thought about while we were kids, my childhood. But, it's obviously to show that it's our parents' childhood life. They played "ba gu li" and "da jia yu"(fish), cool! It caused me recalled back my childhood.

Their loves are complicated. Botak loves "da jia yu" (this is nickname of a girl, but not the fish), she loves him too. Barley Beng loves Botak and Barley Beng's brother loves "da jia yu". Beside, "prince" loves Barley Beng. Botak's sister (fat girl) loves "prince" and one thin guy loves fat girl. Complicated love!!!! Haha~ I see this situation.

Sisters said it's not good due to the movie hasn't a good content and no a good results, they all separated at the final and passed away shoulder through shoulder on the road.

Owing to it caused me recalled back my childhood lots and the last words of the movie, so I like it.

"我不知道那是不是....初戀就像是吃紅豆冰一樣,在口裡還來不及品嘗,它就冰痛了你的嘴,然後溶化了.雖然它冰痛了你,你還會再想要吃!"

矛盾

不要自以为事用地你的[以为]来判断[真相]。

[以为]只是maybe[可能]，这只是个[可能]。

所以别[以为]你的[以为]是对的，别以你个人的[以为]来伤害你自己甚至是身边的人。

有些[真相]不知道总比知道来得好，

但有些[真相]知道了会更好，免得再自[以为]下去。

有些事情或许装着不看到、听不着，会更好，为的是什么？

1）不想伤害对方

2）不想伤害[其他人]

3）自私点，不想被伤害

4）想知道某个[答案]

5）。。。

再没知道答案以前别[以为]你的[以为]是对的。

但，即使知道了[答案]又怎么样呢？

不完整的[答案]。

一个完整的[答案]会造成[伤害]，一个不完整的[答案]依然会造成[伤害]，而不是[安慰]。

它不会是个[安慰]，永远都不会是，它只会是个[伤害]。

那么两者都是[伤害]，为什么还要知道[答案]、[真相]？

为的只是想证明你的[以为]是对的吗？

然后再一次又一次的跌入谷底？

为什么[人]总是那么的[矛盾]？

**晚安了。

15 April

I had bizarre dreams commonly. Don't ask me what are "them", because I'd forget it after wake up, I only feel bizarre to that.

I dislike to drink milk, but I drank it about four days already. Well, I lack of calcium. x.X

I'm very sobriety now indeed, taking a deep breathe!!

Jocelyn and Tiffany came my house just now.

Somehow, suddenly, she laughed and said something else which I'm not thought it was a joke. Yet, she felt fun. Alright, I said I didn't want to let other misunderstand, so I asked her to pass it. Okay, it's not fun anymore actually.

I just don't understand that she took it as a joke, Huey took it as a fun too. Are you laughed as you thought I... Um... Nothing should I to be explained, you had forced me to answer you before.

It was just like that and passed! It's not as complicated as you thought. (I'm not angry, but I dislike you all took it as a joke and tell others) Could you imagine if I gave myself? It'd alike I jumped into drains if I did so!

Would you pay me? hehe... I'm so nice to create it, hehe, however, it's not done yet. xD

I'm not as that brave, I'm just silly.

I only don't want talk so much with other, is it.

I'm fine.. fine fine..

Maybe...

I thought it was complicated, but it wasn't.

So, take it easy.

Did I find a depression myself?

Pieces of my life

I just saw some pictures. Actually, I escape to see the real pictures from my albums, I mean the real atmosphere pictures. What I saw were other's pictures, causing I thought back some memories, it was worst!! @_@

Smiling shallowly, nevertheless the heart was pain just now. Smiles depends on I felt myself very silly on that year, on that day, on that time... and now too, why I'd still feel miserable for that, stupid indeed.

Yet, nobody knew what's wrong with me on that moment. They thought I felt bore and tire.

***I recalled back something fun yesterday too***

I read newspaper yesterday, one of the event was one guy proposed in a cinema.

First, it's a special way to propose? Why it would come out as a big news?

Second, I feel it's not special anymore since I saw this kind of events before too, same at cinema. =.-"

Third, hahaaa.... I recalled back that Alex said, "我希望以后有人可以在船上跟我求婚."

But, we heard as "床", hahaa.. Well, we took this as a joke that time.

Perhaps, you've forgot, or maybe you could still remember it. Haha. It's fun memory. Hehe.

##Everyone has their own sweet memory and worst memory.

I tried to forget the bad and recall the sweet, but why the worst still could appear?

Hmm... Nobody know how pain it was, killing me. But, it was gone, why need to explain? I never got its answers, yet I keep hoping to know!!!! Tell me, please!

Ahh ~ I'm asking who? mad already, LOL. Anyway, I'd never get its answers from the coming days.

"Says bye to the bad days."

12 April 2010

Feelings...

faint, want to vomit... ahh~

my pill just left one, the last one!!

Well, I dislike drink milk, nonetheless, I drank it on this two days. I feel better after drank the milk. ^^

Originally, was baby put the gold watch into dad's bag and it dropped at Kedah since dad worked at there last few days. =.-"

It was shocked that the snake came into my house just now. It went out already. (4 legs snake).

Children

I admit I love children much, there are cute. ^^

While I was kid, I got my younger cousins, playing with them everyday. I could only hug them while they grew up a bit since their bones were easily to be broken. As long as I grew up, I got my niece, of course I love her much more than cousins. I've my first time to hug a baby who just been born! After that, my nephews.

When my sister has her second kids, she started to ask for helping from me because she knows I love kids and I got cared kids before. Huh? When? Um, well, cared my cousins, hehe, to be "KPC", my family always scolded me during that time.

At the beginning, I won't scold and hit kids. Yet, as long as I'll scold them if they do wrong. Nevertheless, I seldom to hit them, unless they're too over. Despite, I beat them, I'd only beat softly, it isn't pain anymore, maybe, because they could still smile to me sometime. =.-"

Eh, my sister would like "employee" me as her children's nurse, hehe, since I've this ability.

Uh.. It's a normal case if baby piss to you, well, I met this problem before too. Actually, it's just nothing, changed clothes again only. I couldn't scold them as they don't know, you've to teach them patiently.

I helped them to bath sometime even when they defecate, I'd help them clean.

I taught them how to talk, how to walk, how to work... hehe..

Lots... lots...

No one of kids in my family would fear of me, see, I'm so kind, LOL, joke.

When the kids sleep in your hug, it feeling nice, they're innocent and cute.

Kids are angel, but also demo. Why said so? When they listen to you or enjoy with you as well, they're angel. If they're starting to cry or they purposely do something which is opposite like you said, and then they're demo. It is true. But, "hate" them problem would be solved if you really love them.

My younger nephew was seldom came my house last time and even he came, he disliked me, beating I while meet I. =.-" hehe... At present, he'd excited when I go out with him and he'd ask me to follow him sometime. I taught him "blue" today. ^^

I guess to be aunt is better to be mum like Miss Malini said. ^^

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Sighs... My aunt asked me for doing her daughter's work last night.

It's a wrong act, I knew.

In fact, no matter how busy I was I'd teach her kids (cousins) as well when they didn't understand, but not copy answers for them, unless her mum came to get answers from me. Um, I'd call them come to teach them. Yeah, they won't ask any questions about homework from me just their mum, so I'd call them come my house.

What should I say? Uh... they'd cry when they don't know how to do or alike last night couldn't finish at the last minute. Well, three days homework, need to be done in last two hours, for her is impossible, but for me surely possible. Beside, she doesn't know how to solve the math solutions, I wonder if she did herself, it was more than two hours. If I taught her, surely more late. Of course, she cried. =.-"

Uh... I was too tire, brain was hung last night, so I didn't taught them, doing PRIMARY MATHs.

Don't you feel too over to ask somebody else to do your kids' homework? However, they cry, you couldn't too! In fact, I knew aunt helped her kids do homework sometime, =.-" You couldn't too over love your kids until that step, it'll destroy them!!

Alright, when I was kid, mum and sisters would ask me to do homework on Friday or done it before the end of holiday. But, as a kid, play is the most importance than homework, right? Hehe. Hence, I played until last minutes just did homework, crying since I couldn't finish! How? Mum hit me, x.X it was my own fault, nobody could help me just myself.

Finally, I knew how to manage my time, before the third day of end of holidays, I'd finished all the works. Hehe. I'm lazy. As long as I grew up till about standard 5, I limited myself to done all the works before (max) 10.00p.m because I finished it on 9.00p.m as usual (before another movie was starting). After 10.00p.m, I cried to do work, mum and sister were teaching younger sister. They would only comfort me to do it slowly, it's okay, the main was finished all the works. Hehe.

Um.. Mum helped me to do homework while standard 1 & 2 too, but it was no choice. My right hand was wrapped as need to needle everyday in hospital. Once, was accidence, my finger's bone on right hand "broken", so I couldn't do work (at the beginning), but tuition teacher trained me to use left hand finally. She said I couldn't always depends on other's hands. But, don't ask me to use left hand to write, it's ugly words, hehe, I've been long time don't use it.

I could remember about standard 3, mum hit me, my both hands and legs bled! I cried louder, very louder indeed until grandpa who at beside house could hear me. He came to save me. ^^ Hehe. Oh yup, the reason was I failure my BM, just about 2x marks, hahaa.

*I wasn't working hard since fear hit by mum, but..because of I wanted to study at the front class. xD

Now, I remember I really cried louder before already, ehehe.

Date for Woohp

I was rush to bath and picked up all the matters which I should bring before went out, driving to Huey's house, we did something before went out. I gave her some mangos too, hehe, her favorite. ^^

I saw Jocelyn wore the "W" necklace, well, no one of us except her wore it. The most hurt was Huey said it is "M", gosh, BOSS? Uh, I wanted to wear it too, but I sensitive to fake necklace, so I've asked mum to buy a real for me. But, it's expensive, so she said give her some time, hehe.

Singing K at Sunway again, five of us (Mei, Jocelyn, Huey, Alex and I), it was fun and high. Actually, Alex joined us at last few minutes because she busy. I was hungry indeed, so I got my lunch there with fly rice and Huey was having her curry rice, tasty!! xD The mice always had problems and we were calling "waitress" many times to solves it. Sighs. It was hard to come by since Alex could join us, however, she was late. Alright, she busy to works commonly. x.X

Honestly, we were mad, haha. Well, Jocelyn said should choose all Westlife's songs next time. Actually, I seldom to hear their songs lately, but others. Besides, some of english songs, I just touch and go, I got listen but just few times. I keep hearing some of those english songs, nonetheless, I didn't sing it before. My english isn't that good, so I can't like other hear few times, and then I could sing.

Some pictures here...

Jerry & Alex

Gosh~ Actually, I knew she captured me, but I was thinking of festschrift.

I seldom to take photo with her. hehe. ^^

Ahh~ I'm fatter, x.X.

After that, we watched "CLASH OF THE TITANS", um, this movie is nothing special because it's alike "Percy Jackson". The main character is half god half human, name Persusue (I guess I spell wrong already, xD). Percy is half god half human too, in the movie both have frighten monsters, I give you the good example the snake head. Actually, at the beginning, I thought I watched this movie before, but I got to know it's only similar till the movie was shown until middle.

Jocelyn said this movie is frightening, so she looked down while monster came out, =.-" I thought she'd sleep and won't watch it anymore, but she got finally. Horrible? Terrible? Frighten? Um, it's still okay for me since I've use to watch it and I like to watch these kind of movies.

One picture here...

It's darker,nonetheless, I think you know who are them. (In cinema.) ^^

清明节

Well, I hadn't chance to go Taipeng for praying grandpa (maternal) again. Yet, as usual I followed my parents to pray grandma & sister (paternal). We looked for their grave, but couldn't find it!! Therefore, asking help from the person there, thankful, we got it.

We used a faster speed to arrange, praying them, and then backed home as it seem would raining soon and it was starting to turn dark. Well, we backed at 7.30p.m. Uh, we usually went there around 6.00p.m. Hehe. You could find that some people camped there, haha, prayed and ate there. We were like them last time too, but finally... my parents would wait until grandpa backed home, and then we just went to pray.

It was a heavy raining at Kedah there, yup, on the way to back home. The thunders everywhere, it was horrible! The most shocked and terrible was the thunder hit beside our car!!!!! We saw it, it was large and bright! Well, the trees are at the side of road, so the thunder would near us!

Yesterday, we went to pray grandma (maternal) as she dead less than one year, so we've to pray her on time (yesterday). There was hot, many people there too, sighs. But, it's lucky that isn't grave, otherwise it'd more hot. Um... (I've skip a lots.) Eh, aunt prayed uncle there too, so we met there. I got cake from aunt, it's tasty, I love cookies and cakes which made by her! ^^

Candidly, uncle's look is starting to be blur for me right now, but I miss him so much like I miss grandma. Well, they're alive in my heart. Actually, I saw his look at the "box" there, but I doubt it. Perhaps, that picture was taken while he was young. I fear grandma's look will be blur someday too. Yet, it's lucky I got her photos, but I've not uncle's photos.

I didn't talk much while with them since he was there. I wonder know why he is free to seize crabs, but hasn't time to "seize" a job for himself?! Isn't we family ode him? When he just will wake up? I saw he.. isn't gentle and irresponsible at all! No ever pick up his responsible to his mum, siblings, his wifes, kids and even HIMSELF! Why should dad paid the payment for his car?I hate to meet him.

4 April 2010

I went to Pisa (Penang) for Homec fair with my siblings. In fact, eldest sister only wanted I went with them for caring her kids. (She's always like that, my younger siblings followed us too at the final.

There were too many people, traffic jam of people. Alright, um... many furniture there, but just few of them are nice.

On the way to go... Brother in law just said, "I forgot to order the bed!" =.-" Therefore, driving back to Pisa, he went to order himself. In the car, eldest sister said, "There is lucky that you follow me, or else I couldn't care my kids, there are too many people." Hehe.. Of course.. xD

Then, we went shopping, going to beach. We had our "jagung bakar" there, cool, it's tasty!! It was thunders, terrible, it seem like would raining soon. So, we backed home after that.

3 April 2010

It was surprised that brother cooked mee for younger sister and I last night, hehe.

I opened movie for cousins watching. I told parents that my room got many ants couldn't be cleared, hence dad said he'll help me tomorrow if he comes back early. He said, "Why don't you sprayed by yourself? Just 'blu.. blu..' like that." He was act fun and said those words, causing I laughed. zzz...

Then, he told us that he faces two problems in his works today. First, his worker bent hand accidentally, so he needs to bring him to see doctor. Um... My dad is a responsible person, ehehe.

Second, complicated....

Some tests' results

My 2nd sister starts her journey to Sabah this evening for few days. Um.. sighs.. I've been long time didn't sleep alone already. Hehe~ Actually, I'm not alone because younger sister sleep at up bed, just nobody with me sleep on the queen bed. Perhaps, younger sister will sleep with me since up bed is hotter.

I did tests just now, kinda accurate.

First test's result.

你是一個勇敢的生命鬥士，會為所有的事情奮鬥不懈；童年與青少年時期，因為你這種強烈的勇士性格，所以招致較多的紛爭和困擾。對於自我生命的掌握有很強烈的意志和欲望，也就是說，你認為只有自己才是自己生命的主人。你有一種獨特的個性美，也是標準的急性子；如果能夠好好的控制一下脾氣，凡事三思而後行，自然容易攀達生命的顛峰，成為優秀的領導者，完成理想事業。

(Actually, I truth myself can change my life, it's not depends on god, but ourselves. Besides, I always say 只有自己才是自己生命的主人, hehe.. )

Second..

你外表看起來很強勢

其實這類型人的第一印象，覺得他好有威嚴，有那種大姐大哥的氣勢，不過在內心深處，在私底下跟他相處，會覺得好像鄰居的大姐姐大哥哥，如果和另一半相處時，就像個小女人，第一印象很強勢，但還有溫柔體貼的一面。

(Well, you guys would think so, right? )

Third

「單蠢」指數 80%。你是一個天生粗神經的人，當好友想給你暗示而掐你的時候，你還會傻傻的在眾人面前問她為什麼掐你，弄得好友尷尬不已，實在「單蠢」得令人髮指。

(Sometime, I really couldn't get your meaning, so better tell me straightly. xD)

Fourth

你非常的理智，不會因為別人的意見而隨波逐流，或是猶豫不決。你的思緒很清楚，無論遇到什麼麻煩的問題，都能經由你的抽絲剝繭，得到解決的方法，是大家心目中最佳的領導型人選。

(It's true on the first sentence. Alright, I did many tests and I got know I always get this result 最佳的領導, see the first test here too. In fact, there aren't only these two tests, but other tests too. Yet, I don't think I'm, have you ever see I'm a leader? I never was. If I'm a leader, um.. I don't think I could handle things as well and it's a tire job.)

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Actually, I want to say... just tell all the boys and men.. I

If you don't love the girls, please, don't treat girls ambiguously. It's playing their feelings and emotions. Perhaps, you'd feel fun while doing that. But, girls won't, no.. I should say most of the girls in this world would easily misunderstand, and then fall in love with you.

Hope that you guys .. sighs.. don't think it's a game, it would hurt girls!! Jokes that at normal level it is enough, don't too over. Otherwise, it would be too late if she loves you and you'd hurt her!

*I'm not mean myself. It's from my observation, I saw one girl who like that (secret). In fact, I'm not close with her, but I got know some news and her actions told me that she's in sadness.