25 Sept

I just feel like tire and I don't want to talk.

There are too many things I can't tell and I don't how to tell.

It's nothing different as this world just me alone, at school, at home and anywhere else.

Why?? *Every time I take it as a challenge, but this time I'm tire. I should say I afraid until tire... *
The problem is repeated again and again and almost the same.

You won't know how frightening if you live in a fear all the time.

Once, PA sir talked about something which caused I thought about all the cases, I almost lost control and cried out in the class, yet I didn't. The most terrible case, the screens, their faces...
*the unforgettable fear forever*

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We walked from Kwang Hwa until Apolo since the "you xin" was stopped at a sudden. It was kinda fast for us finished watching it.

He kept talking nonstop, I was tire to hear all of that. 2nd sister and younger sister talked with him together, somehow. Thus, there was only me kept quite, I got nothing to say.

I didn't like to say anything when those adults talk about each others' bad words, something like that, no matter is relating with grandpa, uncles, aunties, mum or... For me, no, I dislike to hear all of that, even if I hear, I'll pretend don't know. For me, just in case they really do so in front of me and hurt me, or else I won't consider.

I'm seriously tire.
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Going to a concert at Autocity, we was there for awhile only and met cousin there.

(another mixture)

I'm so sorry, Yan ling, I just read your blogs. When I read it, thinking about my grandma. I was thinking I had already ready to face it too last time, but not really since I stool feel heart broken when "the day". Alright, may god bless your grandpa. *You must limit the days to sad, it was what I did.*

Being alone, it causes I look pity at the class? There are only four girls at the class, including me, strange ones. Seriously, I really have no topics and things to chat with. What you can see is ME keep quite the whole day, sometimes even have no smiles.

Everyday, sleepy, tire, helpless, bore, missing, blank and...

If I pain, I pretend as no pain...
If I cry, I pretend like I'm only feeling sleepy...
If I feel alone, I pretend like nothing to me...

Meaningless...

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I come to my blog everyday, thinking of want to write something else, yet seriously I don't know what should I say.

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I went to "jiu wang ye" at last two days ago, somehow, my mum met a lot of her old friends there. =.-"
Having a smile to them, I got nothing to do. Honestly, I dislike go to a place which have so much people like that, at there, I was always thinking about 'I want to back home!!!'.

Uh.. My purpose to be there was to pray my 3rd sister and (I don't know how to say). Nevertheless, we were late to go, so my parents' friends' son helped us. Their son is so friendly and mild, mum praised. A little boy who has rumor with my younger sister since he was kids, lol... hahahhaa....

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These days, people like to shake their hands or .... I don't know I just feel weird why they like to do so lately, maybe I look like my spirit is not inside my body??

The little boy, Sobben, friends and a lower form guy... zzz... they did shake their hands at a sudden in front of me lately, yeah, I think maybe I always stare blankly lately.

The lower form guy is most weird, I didn't know him, he suddenly called me "jie jie". At the beginning, I was not smiling to him. I didn't know how many times he called, then I just smiled.
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Thank to Shin, Sushi, Ai Wei, Yang...

Erm...thank to Huey and Sley for helping.. hehe..

16 Sept 2010

I guess today, opps.. yesterday was my terrible day!!!

Suddenly, my brother said, "Let's go to Pacific together, we had such a long time hadn't shop together! Please~!"

I said, "Every time is your fault, you know what, every time is just left you don't want to join us! I'm lazy to go out today... x.x sighs... Fine, I have my bath first!"

Shopping with my family, we'd have fun there, I thought we're going home after we went to Pacific. Nevertheless, my dad was driving to BM, thinking he wanted going another shopping centre.

"Dad, where you want to go?", my brother got shocked since my dad drove to the road. Alright, we would never know where my dad bring us to go, he would never tell us, this time too.

"Eh, I have cooked today what, why want to eat at here?", my mum asked while near a restorant. Again, he didn't answer it!!! But I guessed I knew his answer. Hehe~

It should say we were very lucky to meet my dad's friend and his family there? Zzz.. Yet I kinda dislike a betrayer! Cheh! However, he was a betrayer, we'd like to talk with them, yeah, of course, there weren't including me!

As we were talking about his daughter's boy friend, somehow I changed topic to talk about 2nd sister. Hahaha... Then... the meeting about it was started!!!! OMG .... Obviously, my dad doesn't like the guy, ahhahahaah, but just my mum is okay. Well, my brother told us that his gf's house was near there. Hahahah~ What I can say is... funny... hhahahhaha~ I don't know what's wrong with my mum just now, she was funny! By the way, my brother who is a professional, ahhahaha... xD we use to say he is because we would like to get the opinnions from him, so once we have him, we're not that idiot! LOL... hahahhahaha... I said, "Since we have you, we'll getting clever soon. LOL. The steps are useless to us. hahhahaa..."

*Don't touch my things, please!! Luckily, they didn't! sighs... *

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We had bought a cake to celebrate Sushi's b'day at station one, Happy Birthday and bless you healthy and happy and always be young! hehehehe~

Ahhhh~~ How hope someone could help and save me!!! x.x My friends... they're so frightening, you know? Asking the same question for the whole night, it caused I didn't know how to answer.

I regreted to go, sighssssss..... You all caused I wanted to cry, lol.. hahaha just joke!

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2nd sister, "Mum said my chinese's b'day is 3rd sister's chinese's death day!!!"

OMG~~~~~~~ x.x we were never know it until just now!!!

I said, "Then, you could never celebate your chinese's b'day after this!!!"

I think my 2nd sister might feel bad.

Sighs... 3rd sister...