OH MY GOD~ I'm W.T Gwee, okay?

In fact, I was just joking to ask BH to be the chairman, they really shouted his name. Well, I didn't hand up for anyone to support them since I knew my friends didn't hope to be.

Thinking about the physic questions and listening to those guys' talk, they shouted my name at that moment. The black teacher, "Who's Gwee Wan Theng?"

There was no excuse that could be given as he didn't allow, I had no choice to come out. I thought nobody would support me, yet while stepping in the class room, I was shocked and out of my mind. I was thinking, "What's the hell? No... Who's the hell to support me? Ahh~"

Then, some of my friends started mocking me, "Wow~ You're the MC!!"

Why don't you just kill me? I rather to die!! Whatever roles I can play, but except this! Although, I dislike some other roles too, this MC, is the one which I can't play!

I'm W.T Gwee, okay? It's hard to imagine I stand in front of everyone to talk playing the role! I can't imagine myself also.

Who can replace my role? I totally don't want!

difficult

I don't want to say I'm tire again, but it is true.

I feel I'm lonely and breathless to solve those troubles around me, I need and expect someone to be with me and help me, solving it together with me.

I hate to make all the decisions on myself or people throw this responsibility for me, I don't want! I'm tire for all of that! I hate people to ask me do decision, especially on this kind of case, yet I seem like I have no choice to do decision since "they" throw the responsibility to me. If I cruel to someone, I'll feel sorry to he/she while if I cruel to myself, I'd feel myself is a stupid!

Why the thing is getting worst, difficult and complicated?

I hate it!

Why I feel hate when people rely on me?

Are you asking me opinions?

I don't want to be like that, I don't want to take this responsibility and don't want to be cruel to friend or myself! What choice I do, I'll feel sorry too, either I feel sorry to friends or myself. I don't want do this kind of thing!

Nobody can give me opinion in this case. What should I do?

Although, I want to be selfish, my heart is not allowing me to so!

How hope I'm cold-blooded!

I'm cool, they said. But I'm cold, why don't I'm cold, instead of cool?

I hate myself always do somethings stupid!

I don't know! I don't want! I only want to cry! Can I?

I need a shoulder, it is what I feel now.

Shut up if you don't know everything!

"We're still friends."

A sentence like this is rejection or giving someone hope?

I only don't want to be cruel and I only said this! I can be cruel than her, but I fear to hurt him and stimulate him to become more serious.

Later, you all whine I cause him becomes serious.

Well, I didn't say anything except this sentence to him and I didn't give him hope, never ever!!

Why don't you all think about my situation?

As a girl when you heard and saw the experiences from your friend, how would you feel?

It is terrible, frightening, horrible...

Now, I'm the person who scare than you and I might be the person who nearest compare to her.

I'm not brave enough to face it!

I don't expect and I don't want all of that!

You won't understand except I heard and saw the experiences from her, myself, saw somethings which cause relate with me, feeling nausea and hateful to it.

Every time, I pretend to be don't know.

Don't tease me or say I cruel!

I'm a human also, I'm a girl also!

I'll scare of I'm the second victim!

I EXPECT I won't be!

[I'm not thick face to think about it, but just many things you guys cannot see it and don't know it, except me and my best friend.]