difficult

I dislike this feeling seriously!!

Sighs...

Everytime, I come back home, it let me feel good for just a few days until he back, until my turn to back!!
I don't know how to describe the feelings I have, but then it is totally sad and not willing to leave here.
Although, I have accepted the things at Uni and I could feel happy when meet my friends there.
Somehow, I still will have this kind of feeling before I leave here, why? I don't want to leave or can I stay at here to complete my studying life?

Complicated.

No matter how much I love there, I'm still loving my hometown the most. >.<

Well, I'm independence at there, but not here.
Sometime, I don't know which is a real one? The character which I play at there? or here? or both?
I feel that one at there, I'm so careful to treat them, I'd mind what they think of me and also bully me.
I just try avoid the argument occurs, I just try to close my heart.
But at here, my gang, I won't worry about it, I should say that I never worry about it.
I'm not hiding anything since I don't afraid at all.

Sighs.
How many time I will have this kind of feelings again?
twice per sem? or more than that?
that's the reason why I don't like to back home, when I'm at home, I will not want to back there...

*Anyway, I'll try to be a better one.
I'll try to change to be a better one. ^^