difficult

I dislike this feeling seriously!!

Sighs...

Everytime, I come back home, it let me feel good for just a few days until he back, until my turn to back!!
I don't know how to describe the feelings I have, but then it is totally sad and not willing to leave here.
Although, I have accepted the things at Uni and I could feel happy when meet my friends there.
Somehow, I still will have this kind of feeling before I leave here, why? I don't want to leave or can I stay at here to complete my studying life?

Complicated.

No matter how much I love there, I'm still loving my hometown the most. >.<

Well, I'm independence at there, but not here.
Sometime, I don't know which is a real one? The character which I play at there? or here? or both?
I feel that one at there, I'm so careful to treat them, I'd mind what they think of me and also bully me.
I just try avoid the argument occurs, I just try to close my heart.
But at here, my gang, I won't worry about it, I should say that I never worry about it.
I'm not hiding anything since I don't afraid at all.

Sighs.
How many time I will have this kind of feelings again?
twice per sem? or more than that?
that's the reason why I don't like to back home, when I'm at home, I will not want to back there...

*Anyway, I'll try to be a better one.
I'll try to change to be a better one. ^^

free day

University life? Perhaps, the eldest people would say, "University life would be the best one in your life."
I think so... But, what make it become the best? Huh? We should have a statement to support it, right?

During this time, you would have many holidays, hmm... At the same time, you have a little money. Between, since you're no longer a small little girls or boys, your parents would permit you. Then, you would go travel with one gang of friends.
Seriously, in hostel, in class, except we chit-chat and share, nothing would be fun than we could act crazy outside this environment.

Travelling is one of my dream, I'll not give up the chance to go, in case there some reasons. hehhe~

Well, perhaps, we are no longer a little girls, mature due to seeing little bad side of the social and people. So, when I'm in uni, I will not as nature as with the gang at hometown. I see everyone of us, being careful all the time even a speech, so that we will not hurt or offend each other. We are scaring of the relationship between each other will be broken easily... @@
We always put one thing in our heart, that is... we have still four years to go, facing each other everyday in this uni and maybe we gonna live together with this gang in the coming years. How can we offend? hmm....

I'm still always be myself at there, hahaha.. Many of them had been seen my terrible stubborn temp.. hahhaha...

I'm still think of ... at hometown is better...

Alright, now count down, I'm still have 3 years to go, may god bless me.. >.<
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These days, I see many of friends post their travel photos, hahhaa... I think this what we spend our holidays ba...

The time pass by, environment changed, people changed...
Heart changed???

however, getting lesser to contract, heart didn't change...

my surprising day

This was my first time.. It will be my great memory night with them ytd..my 21st birthday celebration!!I'm excited n surprised for all that...u guys, every year plan the birthday celebration with me,this time is the most touch n awesome birthday celebrity ever..haha...I don't know what to say right now..as u guys said,I didn't hv presents, but surprising this year!!!

Never know that u guys could hide in my house very well har!!haha..pakat with my family n bf..@@ but I feel great because I get this kind of surprised which I was admired..this feeling is really the best ever!!

I feel great n extremely happy that I met u guys n u guys will be my gang for my whole life,I promised!!even if we less contact, in my heart,I'm still loving u guys so so so much!! Can't deny that times fly, we met nearly 9 years, some of u are even more than that..seriously,I cant accept 20 in my year n now even 21, sighs,force to accept this reality..hahaha..

My dears,I'll cherish n appreciate all the things u guys made n ur hearts!!really!! We were happy n crazy together before,we were crying n sad together before..we are young before!!hahaha..

I feel the friendship with u guys, at least we were not feeling trouble n hard to get, but still we do love each other so much..I guess majority of us feel hard when go in college or uni to get new great friendship lik this,I think yes...but still nvm,I hv u guys all awhile with me...

I really feel sorry that sometimes I put the bslancing to other plc,instead of u guys,but u guys still hv the heart to me..


Really thank you that u keep me warm all the time..love u,muackss!!