The tearS

I don't know whatever I'm too weak or too funny, yet I could tell you frankly I don't want to be a weak person.

I had my thoughts, imagines and ... to them while doing some work this morning at school. I was upset for everything, nothing serious matters happened on me today. I feel fake. Well, sometime I'd feel like this since Form 6 and I don't want to let myself cry because of this again, thinking of I'll get use to it.

She told me something just now, feeling bad. I've a look for its details, so the worst feeling is getting stronger inside my heart as I understand her feelings. As a outsider who don't involve them, somehow, I understand her feelings since I was almost like her before, but I wasn't as serious as her. Honestly, as a friend what I should say, I've told.

Then, I try to stand on her conditions to think because she is my best friend, I feel.. I think.. Honestly, I'm sorry since I couldn't help you all any thing and I don't know what should I say to you also and comfort you.

I'm tearing..

LOL.. It seem like is not a big problem [the feel which I've today at school]
It is totally non of my business...

But... I'm crying... *I know I'm silly, I dislike this kind of me also, too weak...*

miXtuRe .. xD

It's like an emergency break, I become cold down since I'm a selfish.

I'm tire and I don't want to get hurt anymore.

Am I right to do so?

***************************************************

If you say, "I don't understand you, so I hope you tell me more about yourself."

Why should you understand me?

I always believe that time would help you.

Moreover, I'm the person who you share, I share.

***************************************************

Yea, my voice can be louder than that, but just when I shout, it is impossible to ask me shout to you all the time.

I'm not pretend to use a small voice, hope you know.

**************************************************

Sometime something won't be happened if you know how to control it.

I rather loss a chance, no matter it is good or bad, I also won't rather to let myself cry someday.

**************************************************

Since the day you keep laughing when mention that matter, I know, as a outsider, I see it clearly, but just yourself didn't.

Now, maybe you're regret.

Bless you good luck

**************************************************

She is a pretty girl who is naive.

Nonetheless, the god played a joke to her, sighs.

Wish she will be fine, however, I'm not close with her.

*************************************************

Somehow, I miss them and feel sad to know their situations now.

Honestly, we didn't even talk one word before that, we were totally like strangers.

Now, I rather be with them, at least it is not that worst.

*************************************************

Irritated

Sighs.. I don't know what's wrong with me today, something wrong, I guess.

I feel...

Ahh~

After that, I really angry and hate myself so much and WANT becoming a crazy to shout! Why should I? It's none of my business and actually, I can needn't to care about it what. Seeing from the surface of the problem, I guess you only would get half marks for it since it's not exactly because of that.

This is the second time which could consider as serious, for me only. Honestly, I feel I'm hard to control it, trying hard to minima and don't talk, so that nobody knows, but I failure.

OS "How would you know?" Uh...

Perhaps, it was too obvious just now.

I feel bad, angry, hate and disappointed to myself, feeling I was over, no, I'm over! Ahh~ I hope that I won't repeat next time.