miss my grandma

This time I need use 1 month? 2 month? 3 month? half year? or one year?I don't know how long I should take to forget my hurts!!

I lost my grandpa since about 7 years ago, but it's still pain... it's unforgettable! I don't know how to face him when I meet him, I just know how to escape him. No choice!

I miss my grandma, I lost her few months ago. The hurt, I can't reduce until now! I hope to see her again, but I clearly know it's impossible in case I die! I have long time no go to her house already as I don't want go there, yet can't see her just see the "sheng zu pai"! However, when I free, I would find her photos to see..I still hope to see the real person than photos! No chance!

CNY will coming soon... somehow, I don't got the mood and don't want to buy new clothes for myself! Look, my siblings go to Queenbay Mall now to buy clothes, but I don't join. For me...it's meaningless to celebrate it. When I was kid, we brought grandpa to visit grandaunt at Penang every year and we would go to Kek Lok Si too. We would brought grandma to visit many granduncles and grandaunt, my CNY time wasn't enough for me to visit relationship. That was my happiness memories. No happiness, I just wish to gather with cousins during CNY, I miss them so much! I'm expect the day I "argue" with my cousin.

最想念阿嬤(外婆）的肉粽! When she pass away was near "端午節", so my mum can't have do it herself... should buy one! +_+ everytime see the "ba zhang" I'll just want eat grandma did one...

婆婆做的半咸甜粽子 (buan gian din) 也不錯，可是我沒吃過，媽媽講好吃。還好媽媽有跟婆婆學過。。

Anyway, just miss them.. I'll not forget all of you! I hope you'll be beside me to see my success, I think it'll not have this chance already. Every time, I pray, I bless you're alright!

12 Dec 2009

Today, I just realize that what I want, what I need now... But, it's useless to realize it since I'll not get it too.

I went to Jocelyn's house just now. +_+ Huey asked me to go there at 1.30 p.m, but... zzz... she came at 2.30 p.m. Haha... I chatted and watched "Gong Xin Ji" when waiting for them. Eating the Rocky, I feel I was sleepy since the movie I had finish watch it. Finally, Huey came.

We started to discuss somethings which we want to do, on the same time we were waiting for Alex and Clover. I feel after Alex came, Huey got a partner to do somethings crazy. They hided themselves to shock Mei. Haha.. No success. Oh ya, when I was drinking my water, I heard a song sang "豆漿。。豆漿。。。(repeat times)" =.=" I don't know whatever I heard wrong or not, but I almost "vomit" out my water. +_+ We were having our fun there, lol. I forgot what we did and said already, anyway, we just laughed like crazy.

KH sent a msg to Mei. Hmm... I don't know what it is, but Mei said crazy msg. Then, Alex received a msg from WC. Gosh, haha... causing us laugh, Alex asked handphone from me, she wanted use my handphone to cheat back WC. =.=" I rejected her, "Don't be crazy! You should use Huey's handphone.(I was just joking)" She took Huey's handphone, starting her lie and jokes with WC. Hmm... When we wanted to back home, we suggested Huey to call WC to explain to him since we all here, we could prove it was just a joke, or else the case will be serious after this. Yet, she said she'll explain to him after she back home. Don't know how now... +_+

When I back home, eating pandan cake (my favorite) in front of my mum. She was looking at me for a minutes! I felt so weird, " Why look at my eating face?" She laughed, " I look at you, you still don't know what should you do? (Meant I should let her eat!)." I passed my piece of cake to her. =.=" "Sister, if bring RM300 to trip, isn't enough?", I asked my 2nd sister. She started to ask a lot of questions, repeating to ask the same questions! =.=" Finally, I "beh tah han", I went to take the paper to let her see. After read it, she said, "Oh, RM300 is enough if you don't want to buy clothes. If want to buy clothes, then bring RM400."

I think I'll bring RM400, RM300 from my dad and I bring my own money (RM100). Hehhe...

Tomorrow, I got to go to buy shoe. +_+ It is all for today.

News

Don't know why recently when I read newspapers there sure will have couple separate, I meant like one of them die. A groom die when his wedding! His wife self-kill many times after this. The second news is a guy who just 17 year old, he die at an accidence. His girl friend took the ring and cried. Third, a guy who will be a groom soon, but he die at an accidence too when on the way "hui li". Sigh he will marry soon, but die already. +_+

I feel those girls must extremely grieve! Alright, I think we should treasure the movement with the people who around us now.

The main news I want to mention is a girl raped by boys at KTV room. My mum is never allow me to go sing K with friends, she thought there is a place like disco. But, there is totally not, it is different one!! We went to KTV before, that time I didn't tell her that I went there since she wouldn't allow. Now, even worst, sigh. Actually, I feel the girl is so stupid and she isn't a good girl too. Her another two girl friends wanted go to buy b'day gift, why she didn't want to follow them? A girl went into a KTV room with three guys!!! Next, she drunk alcohol. She is just a 14 year old girl, drinking alcohol when with guys.

Those guys when caught by cops, they parents said they're good guys! =.=" Which parents will say their kids are bad kids when face to media? Nah, let turn to a news from last few days ago, a guy who is peddler, his family said he is a good guy too. This rape case, some of them are gangster members. Their parents still say good boys! Gosh, then who we are? I'm not a very good girl, but at least I won't as worst as them. Something wrong with their parents' mind.

Well, the KTV we went before, there got CCTV in each room one. I saw it, I heard Red Box got CCTV in each room too. I guess that KTV hasn't CCTV in rooms. As a girl, we should have to be careful when go out with friends, this is what my mum always say. I have to agree it.