Love the one, you love.

love the one, you love.
care the one, you care.

I faced an incidence today, it was shocked & scary for me.
Alright, it is my first time to see it, facing this situation with panic & don't know what to do.

I saw a friend "fa yang dian" today. It's seriously terrible for me as a first time saw this kind of situation.
Luckily, there were two friends who know how to help at there. I was afraid to lost this friend at that movement, although, they say it's harm.

I felt to cry after he was calm down. But, I continue act as normal even in front of him.

Sighs.. Although, this friend have some bad attitude to us when we are cooperate to do tasks, but he is a good person & good guy.
He is our buddy, although lately we are busy so we are less to join each other.

Anyway, this case let me know that I should forget the bad from a person & treat the good one well.
& appreciate the friends, family & lover well, life time is short.

The first post for 2014

After enter Uni, I'm getting lesser and lesser to be here. Erm.. I think it's since form 6. xD

At here, I use laptop to type those reports rather than this. Haha..Using the time to type reports, to complete it is better than I type a blog.

It has been so many years, & even right now I'm still trying to learn how to don't too care about something, I means like a friendship thing.
But, why I still will cry right now or when people ignore me?

I appreciate that friends from secondary school seriously, our relations are never including enemies, we are simply love each other so well with our simple heart.

But, at here, it lets me feel that it's about social. Of course, there are still some simple ones. Anyway, I hope that I won't change my simple heart to anyone also.

I don't like complicated.
I don't like enemies.
I don't like fake.
I don't like depends on benefits.

I just want to be myself.

Sometime, something ... I don't understand, I don't know the answer, I will not go find the answer by myself too. Perhaps, it's what my learning attitude too. :p
Anyway, I guess I will never ever get the answer.

However, the result is not what I want, it was failure since a very long time ago, I guess.

By the way, I watch a movie lately, the guy says, "The world is simple, but the human's heart is complicated."
I guess it is true. & I like sentence.

Bye.
ps: continue to stay for few more days to the next paper.

lost

Why I wanna so care about it?
Sighs...

Emo~

I have been ignored by the friends and juniors here is not the first day thing, but I was sad indeed today.
Sighs...
I'm the secretary, she is the secretary also.
how come the junior just ignore me, and ask me to excuse today. =.-"
I already try to don't mind the other MT & commitee which are our batch friends to close with her, & my another two friends who are same bureau with me.
I'm not as active & talkative as them. I knew. fine.
My president said before," she looks strict, I don't want kacau her la. I want Yen~~ Yen~"   =.-"
Okay, Is fine. Is really fine. I knew my problems.
I'm not as cute as her.

Then, back to four of us, yea, four of us are close. But, I'm the one who keep let them ignore.
Leyi for first will care Yen first, Sandy for first will care Leyi then Yen.
Then me?

She said, "you are the one who know how to take care ownself the most, so I never worry you."
Yea, I tried to protect myself to don't get hurts, but doesn't mean I'm strong.
They sad, they will 哄 among them, then me?
Take picture... hmm.. What I see the picture she took is just both of them, then me?
When there is a picture which need with members & 合照 just will remember to call me.
No wonder my pictures are the lesser. LOL.

Am I too serious? Am I too strict? Isn't my face problem?? I look strict?
I can't played & joked? or they don't know my limit? &they afraid to step on my limit?

I knew I'm not active & delight & good smiling face as them.
& I also don't like to say hi to other.

That are my problems...  I'm trying to be active, trying to hide the unhappy in front of them already.

Erm.. i should change myself maybe.