Wednesday, March 31, 2010

我怎么了?

我最近是怎么了?就连我自己也不是很清楚!

什么时候开始变得那么安静?
什么时候开始变得对别人的事指挥淡淡的无情的说:“那不管我的事。”?
什么时候开始那么容易生气?
什么时候开始变得不懂得要怎麽告诉别人我的想法,除了写部落?
又是从什么时开始总是很希望身边有人陪伴,就算不说话也没关系?

其实,这些应该不是最近的事而是从一月开始慢慢的演变的吧?!
说真的我真的不知道原因,那个月发生了太多了。
我尝试的要忘了,把那些不愉快给删除了,不过它们隐隐约约的存在着。

要怎麽我才能像以前那样呢?
有些事变了就是变了,能恢复的吗?
就像机械坏了也有没办法修理的时候吧!

要是你问我为什么我会变成这样?
我会说:“我不知道”,因为详细的情形我真的不知道。

如果你问我是不是有心事?
我会回答:“我不知道”,可能我不知道要怎样说,甚至根本就不知道我的心事是什么!

照理说我应该没有什么心事吧?真的没烦恼了呀!
但是为什么呢?
或许我在逃避?但,有在逃避什么呢?

其实我发现到也有些好的变化。。
我变得不害怕陌生人了,就算是去interview什么的,我都不怕了!
还有,我会那么轻易的在朋友面前掉眼泪,而且还会微笑着面对呢!
可能还有更多,只是我自己没察觉到罢了?!

废话一大堆,掰!呵呵~
对了,忘了问:“你们过得好吗?”

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Today's events

I really dislike people come to see what I'm doing while using laptop, it's a hateful feeling. My sister is myopia, what she'd like to do when pass through beside me is nestling up against my laptop!! It's not PC, but my personal laptop!! Well, I was reading friends' blog just now, she nestled up against due to she wanted to see whatever am I playing word challenge or chatted with her friend. If she got know I chat with her friend, she'd want see all those contents! Despite, the guy is her friend, don't you feel over? Besides, it's bothering me since I'm using laptop, chatting with friends and doing my stuffs!!

I've just finished reading "记忆天使", Huey never tell me that it's the first episode of "月亮城", but she only told me that "月亮城" is continuation of "太阳城". Originally, "记忆天使", "太阳城" then "月亮城". Sighs, I just finished reading "记忆天使" and "月亮城", it meant I haven't reading the middle episode-"太阳城", I hope to read it.

I wish to have a study table, this table is too short, sighs. But, how to tell my parents?? They just bought a laptop for me, so I don't wish to waste their money again.

Hey, I'm shocked by two news today! One is about our principal, I guess who has see CW's status at facebook would know it already. Another... uh.. I don't know whatever it's suitable to tell at here or not. Well, it's not my business, I needn't do spam to it. Hehehe.
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In fact, I feel I'm well-being because I got two eldest sisters which care me very well. Both of them alike my mum, sighs. Eldest sister would take care us very well since we were kids, giving us what we want. Nonetheless, she won't care about our homework and she only wishes we all could be fine and gives us blessing as we wish. By the way, she won't ask we do what we dislike to do, somehow her word is more convincing.

Hence, while sometime I don't want listen to 2nd sister's word, she would call my eldest sister, then eldest sister call me and talk to me. Well, my 2nd sister is much more take about our homework, she would alike mum, talking a lots hope that we could accept their advice. Yet, for me, sometime they're noise! When she couldn't success to force me doing something, she would ask eldest sister to force me, =.-" Besides, she would force me to do the things which I dislike, but she thought it's for my own good.

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I'm feeling better to their leaving. I saw them still could online, it feel like they're just around me and never left going so far. Can't deny that I miss them so much, hope to see them.

I guess Huey sure very crazy as her attitudes. I kinda miss her, sighs. Wish that I could visit her, hehe. If can I'll along her lovely mangos and some fruits, lol. She eats fruits everyday, but she told that there got hell oranges and no other fruits. x.x

Mei, are you feeling better? Don't be so upset already, cheer up. ^^ We could meet them someday, no matter is 1 month, 2 months, 3 months or 2 years... they would back soon, the time is passing speedy!! ^^

As Elaine's attitudes, she could have many friends and she's talkative. So, about lonely or whatever, I guess she'd be okay. Anyway, as long as she'll be used to the life there. Gambateh, Elaine!! ^^

For the friends who don't know Cheng and Theng very well, you won't know how funny when they together. LOL. We use to see they debate, it is fun. Theng is lucky than Cheng because she goes NS? hahaa... Hope that Theng can learn a lots from there and take care herself.

Chean, sighs... Apparently, she doesn't wish to go. Well, she's always negative thinking, sighs, hope someday she would be positive.

Shi Lin... I heard that she... uh.. sighs... Well, bless she could still cheer up there and use to be there. I wish to see a funny and crazy Lin. ^^ Wish she would be alright.

Love and Miss you. ^^

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I want to introduce you guys some songs.

How do you sleep by Jesse McCartney
Because you live by Jesse McCartney
She's no you by Jesse McCartney
(Jesse's songs aren't bad. I more like "She's no you".)

You're not sorry by Taylor Swift

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City
(Listen carefully, it's tones alike "Fireflies" by Owl City.)

One Shot by JLS

I hope you find it Miley Cyrus

Baby by Justin Bieber & Ludacris
(I like this song too, but I dislike the rap part. Hehe)

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Stop crying!! (Why can't?)

I tried hard to ask myself calm down, don't cry, I tried to comfort myself...

But.. My heart starts pain while the time is nearest... until she SMS to me telling that she gonna board. I cried out!!

Awhile brother came in, I was shocked, he stood there for two minutes just asked for add math books.

Continue to cry...the blogs.. the comments... the status... the personal messages.. I couldn't control myself.

At least, she doesn't know I cry.

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Huey, Chean and Theng, take care and help each other! .... many to tell... but I...
Weep. Weep. Weep.