真实

习惯了在些人面前当坏人，就一直那样当下去，反正都没差不是吗？

我不喜欢拐弯抹角的找借口的拒绝，我也知道那些借口烂透了！

反正就是不会当双面人，不会讨人喜欢。（所以，人缘不好。）

难听的话总会从我这里传出。。

我没办法像别人一样伪装得很好，即使讨厌也能说很多好听的话，以至于不得罪对方。

抱歉，我做不到。

我就只会做回我自己。

说实在的，并不讨厌，只是交情不深，会闷。。

最重要的是不想看到那种写着“讨厌你”（我）的眼神。。

一个人在想什么，很容易被自己的眼神给出卖。

我不爱说太多话，除非真的想到要说些什么的。

了解的人会懂。。

不了解的会觉得我骄傲或讨厌跟他们说太多。。

像我表弟说的：“有些人因为某些东西不好而不喜欢, 有些人因为不喜欢才说某些东西不好."

不管对东西还是对人也罢，这就是偏见。

而有些人往往对他自己不喜欢的人，无法接纳。。

很偏激！

他们的我只是个讨厌的人，我一直都知道，所以才一直“婉拒”。

我不想参与任何说人家坏话的“组织”，更不想互相猜疑，也不想看到那种眼神！

那种“生活”不适合我！

这次真的不是想太多，或是生气什么的，我很想写很久了，只是有所顾虑。。

A day with family and friends

1 May 2010

We needed to meet on 8.30a.m at Chao Quan. I woke up on 6a.m this morning since I was too cold, getting kinda illness, I felt like want to reject to go actually.

Foo drove CK and I to there, well, we lated. Those guys were eating already, hehe. Mei and Huey were busy to take foods for us while Foo was like camera man there, kept taking photos. As Wee came late, so the situation was seem like he kept eating non-stop, hahaha.

Today list- Mei, Huey, Jocelyn, Chewing, Sushi, Shi Lin, Looi, Ley, CK, Wee, Huat, BH, WC and Foo. (Sorry, if I miss your name.)

Some of them backed home. Huey, Looi, Lin, Mei and I went to Bagan together, Lin bought one Sari. Then，we went to Carefour, buying a lots of rubbish foods!!!!!!! Those guys-BH, Wee, CK and Foo who said wanted to find us at Carefour after went to school, but they didn't as BH scolded KP for about 2 hours there. =.-"

Lin drove us home about 12p.m.

Taking a bath, I slept the whole evening because I sick. Beside, younger sister and my parents went to Penang.

I went to eldest sister's house about 11p.m, I took care her kids and slept with them.

The "great" b'day presents for Foo.

30 April 2010

I was dying to settle my personal matters this morning and I met someone accidentally who I didn't expect to see in a shop. Taking bath quickly, I went to Huey's house, and then Phei's house.

Phei and Alex were starting to cook early before we arrived, Alex kept capturing photos. After that, Huey and I went to buy somethings else, hot day ever! Carry on to cook...

Foods- Cake, spaghetti, pudding, eggs, mushroom soups and oranges.

Waiting for Foo came, sighs.. we were totally hungry, about 3.00p.m. Having our LUNCH together, we cheated hadn't cake and some of us went to living room with him and talked with him while some stayed at kitchen prepared the cake.

Sang birthday's songs, made a wish.. took some photos.. We had our cake, zzz.. Four of them started their cake's fought! While I was innocent to get it from Foo when I was looking at cars outside. x.x

Huey took one egg to knock his head, "phaik", Oh My God, it was like bird's shit!!!! Hence, his whole body from head to leg, all very dirty and smelly! Well, we weren't purposely to do so, we didn't know that the egg hasn't boiled. Alex, Phei and I to knock.. hehehe.. Alright, these time was intentionally. Eggs' fought. We were like crazy high in her house.

Last minutes, they said wanted to watch "Ye Wen 2", it's nice movie indeed! Therefore, we cleaned the house, washing plates and taking bath. We went to fetch Looi to go together.

After the movie, Wee said he wanted coming Sunway with CK to treat us Sushi King. In fact, he wanted to treat Foo, he drove Phei and Alex backed, so just left Looi, Huey and I. Um, shopping while waiting them came, we had our conversations in Sushi King and dinner too.

He drove us home.