29/1/10

So? I'm fine now and somehow I can optimal to face these matters. I found that sometime my thinking negative, but sometime I'd can't cry like now. Yeah, maybe after crying I'm fine. So, there isn't stones inside my heart now. Somehow, I don't care there will something bad happen on me now and just no worries. It is peace like when I was kid, so I'd enjoy it. Um..I guess my SPM results will extremely bad due to during the exams, I was so .. don't know how to say, anyway I guess it'd affect my results. So? What should I do? I can't do anything right now, I just can accept it.

I pulled bottom of mum's trouser, she held my hand, asking what's happen to me? Haha.. um.. nothing happen. Well, since every time there is something happen or I have begging then I'd do like this. Of course, I'm not every time pull bottom of trouser. Alright, my 2nd sister knew I was just want ("o lo", hokkien) spoil like a child. Oh ya, I remember that when I was a kid, my sisters and I would hug mum, telling younger sister that mummy love us, but not her. Then, she would cry. Haha. So childish.

Now, dad's turn. Hmm.. I never spoil like child to him. Yesterday, he told us that the pants which brought from BGM are worst!! Yup, of course, I know. But, other may don't know it, the pants which they sell every year during this season are suck, they sell the pants which rejected from super. Dad said, " My employees and I met embarrass matters before. The pants which brought from BGM were broken when we were working. Then, we had to buy new pants. And, there is lucky that we were working at super that time." An embarrassing experience.

Eh.. Recently, I'm always thinking about grandma, I admitted I cried last few days because of her. I thought I won't cry now if when I miss her, but I'm wrong, the tears are still falling out. Every time I hear the song "Bye Bye" I'll cry, no once time I didn't cry! Therefore, now, I'll click another songs when I know the "Bye Bye" is starting to play. Yet.. sometime I still purposely make myself to cry and click this song to hear. I'd never know I could hurt like this, my heart was like really broken and extremely pain when I saw her photo at there. The tears can still tearing unknowing.

This CNY is meaningless for mum and I. Well, honestly, now I got 3 new clothes, but there weren't brought by myself, no, I meant there weren't choosen by myself. All of that are my sisters brought for me one, they chose that. But, I like too. Another one is I brought last year, but I never wear it! LOL.

So, totally 4. Now, I just need to look for pant.I haven't mood to buy clothes, so .. and my sisters know also.. so they helped me to buy. Hehe.

Yeah, my two rare friends SMS to me last night until they slept one by one. Haha. I was reading a novel which borrow from Huey while SMS with them. Yeah, they didn't say goodnight or bye to me and slept unwittingly. Well, I continued to read the book until I feel tire.

Gonna enjoy my life now, or else after this my life will getting busy, I guess. The moon last night is so bright and beauty, the night sky too, many stars. ^^